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[tutorial] frm sifu LieyanaYunus

2012-02-24T06:16:00.000+08:00

Anda perlukan:
..Anak tudung/inner neck..
..Selendang..
..3 Pin..
..1-2 Jarum peniti..

1) Pakai anak tudung atau inner neck

2) Ambil selendang & letakkn ats kepala. Pastikan selendang sebelah kanan lebih pjg dr sebelah kiri

3) Ambil selendang bahagian kanan dan pin kan pd selendang bahagian kiri (pin kt tmpt yg Mamanym ltak tgn tu)

4) Tarik sedikit bahagian selendang yg sama & pin kan pd bahagian belakang (ikut seperti dlm gmbr ye)

5) Skrg selendang kanan dh berada di sebelah kiri.

6) Ambil bahagian pjg td & letakkn ats kepala (pusingkn dlu, so akn jd mcm dlm gmbr. Bhgian yg dlm selendang akn ke luar. Klu xphm, tgk pd selendang dlm gmbr, kn lain colournye slps di terbalikkn..hehe)

7) Ambil bahagian sebelah kanan & tarik ke belakang (lilitkn mcm dlm gmbr)

8) Pin kan selendang ke belakang kepala (klu ada sanggul, tarik seledang bwh sanggul tu & pin kan, mcm dlm gmbr ye)

9) Bahagian kanan akan kelihatan seperti dlm gmbr ini

10) Ambil jarum peniti & kemaskn bahagian kanan selendang

11) Ni lah hasilnye

Slmt mencuba kawan-kawan :)

Special thanks to kwn Mamanym yg sudi ajar Mamanym cara nk pki selendang ni: Ms. Lieyana Yunus (Yana)

Testing posting frm bb

2012-02-24T05:47:00.000+08:00

Post ini dibuat hny utk test how does the pictures turn out bila Mamanym post frm bb. So mmg post ske2 keyh. Hehe.

[nopicha] the meaning of TASNEEM

2012-02-24T04:08:00.000+08:00

Believe in every word here? Mybe, mybe not. Haha. Honestly, some facts about Mamanym's name are quite true. Chck it out...

1) Your name of Tasneem creates a desire for association with people and new experiences, many of which have been rather bitter.

2) This name has given you a gregarious personality and a quick-thinking, creative, and versatile nature, but one that is very emotional.

3) You desire change and travel and would enjoy opportunities that allowed you to be creative and to act independently, rather than to conform to system and routine.

4) However, this name does not allow you to complete your undertakings, as farther fields always look greener.

5) While the name Tasneem creates the urge to create harmony with people, we call attention to the fact that it causes a restless intensity that defies relaxation.

6) This name, when combined with the last name, can frustrate happiness, contentment, and success, as well as cause health weaknesses in the fluid systems, and solar plexus.

It's just for fun. Wanna knw yours? Click here: http://www.kabalarians.com
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[nopicha] a post on what's happening

2012-02-24T02:07:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum...

How are my readers today? Doing great? Sick? Ohh my, to y'alls yg not well tu, better go to the clinic & take ur medicine yeah. Get a good rest, cpt2 sembuh & be healthy again.

Mamanym plak is kinda sick kinda not. Haha. Cmne tu? Bkn ape, lately perut Mamanym ni xbtol lah. Hmm. Fyi, I didn't get my period yet. Dh 3bulan after my family planning injection (dlu amek, now dh stop). Tekak ada loya pstu asyik ke toilet to wee-wee. Mst y'alls thought that Mamanym prgnt kn? No lah. Dh chck 4times kot. All result are negatives *hampeh :( ..pstu Mamanym pnh ajak hubby g chckup. Doc says ada mcm bebola dlm rahim (smthg like that lah), myb darah yg xkeluar slma 3bulan (drh tu beku tu jd bola.haha). Doc gave Mamanym some vitamins. Katanye hormon xbtol. Ohh well, doc jgak ckp klu xdtg bulan jugak, Mamanym kna lah pegi chckup lg tkt ada ketumbuhan or doc call it 'sis' <--xtaw ejaan betul tp lbh kurg cmtu lah bunyinye. Hehe. Doakn lah Mamanym ni xde pape ye. Klu ada yg taw info psl after the fmly planning injection tu, tlg lah share2 eh. Hope Mamanym ni normal (kwn kata dh monopos.haha.sengal pny kwn *pdhal dlm ht dh cuak.damz!).

Enough about that. Soon (in March), Mamanym akn jd permanent babysitter. Insyaallah. Gonna babysit k.long's children, Fatin Qurratuaini, 2years & Faheem Ahmad Qalisy, 3months. About bayaran tu, xyah lah kite citer kat cni ye. Hehe. Malu ler. Hehe. Nways, klu ada yg nk hntr ank, meh ler hntr kt Mamanym *cewah, promote diri.haha :p ..Mamanym is staying at Puchong. For futher info, cmnt lah ye :) *bg senyuman plg lebar, moga ade customer lg.hehe.

February will be gone soon. Thn comes March & April came after that. My ohh my, time flies. Ni nk gtaw, Mamanym & Abg (for y'alls yg xtaw, Abg is Afif Aydin, ank Mamanym) are flying off to Sydney on 2.04.2012 for a holiday (yes, yes, yes, again! *mngeluh) leaving hubby all by himself for a month sbb hubby akn dtg Sydney on 4.05.2012 :( ..kerinduan lg lah Mamanym jwbnye. Adoyai~ *tepuh dahi, geleng kpla. Bkn hubby jek yg dtg nti. My sisters in-law (k.long & k.ngah) are coming with their fmly too tp dorg dtg 3.05.2012 (a day bfre sbb tcket murah..hehe). The purpose Mamanym g Sydney again is to see Abg's nenny (my mom.she call abg her sunshine). Pastu Air Asia sbnrnye bru ada flight straight frm KL-Sydney & bg hrga promotion. Mamanym's mom alwys waits for this opportunity to get her sunshine to Sydney (spend time together). Cucu pertama mmg cmni. Kn? Hehe. Xpe lah. Rezeki abg is Mamanym's rezeki too. Haha. Tumpang lucky jap :p ..forget to let y'alls knw that we'll be coming bck to Malaysia on 20.05.2011. So yes, Mamanym & hubby will celebrate our anniversary in Sydney. Hope to hv a fantabulous time. Mood cm biase lah bila nk bjauhan dgn hubby will be happy & excited tp sedih :( *saying "giiitttuuuu" cara bapoks*

Ha! Byk dh Mamanym bebel. Haha. Hope y'alls enjoy reading :p ..that's all for now, nti Mamanym nk update blog lg. Tp psl bnd lain plak eh. Hehe. Tggu jek lah ye. So korg tcare & smp jmp lg. Chowz~

P/S: lps ni insyaallah Mamanym akn slalu update blog tp post Mamanym xkn ade gmbr lah ye. Hope y'alls setia mbaca :)
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[abg] snap snap

2012-02-03T00:12:00.004+08:00

Hello everybody.

How are you?

Mamanym & family semua sihat, alhamdulillah.

Sepatutnye mamanym dh tdo tp Mamanym sebok transfer gmbr frm camera to lappy.

Some people request suh upload pix Abg byk2 kt blog ni.

So here are some pichas of Abg khas utk semua.

Btw, hari tu pegi chck-up.

1year 6months old = 11.3kg, 80cm

He's growing up so fast and hope he'll be my ideal lil prince charming [ank soleh].

Enjoy...

Inilah ank mamanym yg sorg (buat masa skrg).

Bermacam ragam kn?

Having him is a real gift frm God.

Whatever happens, Abg will always end up smiling :)

Night y'allsz.

p/s: sorry lah lately mls nk blogging sbb internet xde :(

[vacation] Sarawak

2012-01-23T11:08:00.008+08:00

DAY ONE

theme colours: yellow + dark blue

5 January 2012

flight was at 7:25am

arrived in Sarawak at 9:30am

it was raining and some places di katakan banjir (-_-)"

Stayed at Basaga Hotel, Jalan Jalan Tabuan

Had breakfst (rm15 per plate) then we were all so tired.

All end up getting some rest (tdo ler pe lg..haha).

Woke up by noon then we've decided to go for a walk around Sarawak city

We all naik shuttle bus. It cost about rm15 per ride.

*this the hotel's cat. sgt manja. i loikeee~

Smp2 we all were hungry so went to eat KFC. Yummy~

Stopped to take snaps of this tugu sbb sgt cute. Haha.

*sy buat cmni sbb dlu kt kolej nama level sy ialah "MOCHING" sbb kami semua suka kucing & kucing suka duduk kat level kami. meowww~

By the end of the day we went seberang Water Front to buy some kek lapis yg dikatakan famous di Sarawak. Went to Dayang Salhah. Org2 kat kedai tu friend & of coz lah tmpt tu jd favourite Abg sbb the food is all over. He just grab whatever he wants there. Mcm heaven kek lapis dlm kedai tu. Haha.

How? We all naik sampan. 50cent per ride. Best tp scary gak.

*jakun gak weyh first time naik sampan =p

Blk we've to take the taxi and it cost rm12 from the city to our hotel.

*hotel xjauh pun from the city. adalah dlm 7-10mins rasanye.

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DAY TWO

theme colour: red

6 January 2012

our first destination was to the the Sarawak's museum.

we all walked from the museum to a small pekan to get a transportation sbb semua dh kelaparan nk cari tempat mkn seafood yg best.

Finally kwn k.tania recommend us to go and eat seafood at TopSpot.

Mamanym mlantak like there's no tomorrow. Haha.

*Abg pun sama jek. nk mkn sndri, xnk org suap. btw, the prawn was big, mana xnye selera mamanym besor time ni. hahaha.

watches for 3T :)

pink: Titania

green: Teartika

red: Tasneem

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DAY THREE

theme colours: white + turqoise

7 January 2012

we all follow a tour guide cost rm250 for five destinations

Destination 1:

Semenggoh Wildlife Centre

Here there's orang utan and crocodile.

Time we all pegi ni orang utan tak ada because bukan musim dorang keluar from the forest.

Penjaga kat sana told us that the best time will be mid-year.

Ohh well, dpt dtg tgk pix pun xpe.hehe.

Destination 2:

Taman Buaya

The ticket entry cost rm16 per head for adults. Sorry tak ingt how much was for the kids.

Babies under 3 years old don't have to pay.

Tgk crocodile dgn jarak yg sgt dekat adalah sgt scary.

Destination 3:

The Cat Museum

Mamanym was so amazed by the information given in this museum. All about cats. interesting facts about so many cats. Love it.

Just take a look at the picture of the cats doing alphabets's shapes. Cool huh?!

Yang paling suka facts and info about black cats sbb Mamanym ni sgt suka black cats. Don't ask why coz Mamanym pun xtaw cmne nk explain. Haha.

*hubby plak ske white cats sbb dr dlu mmg fmly hubby bela white cats. the fmly's fav cat, Nyanyau died in 2009 :(

About destination 4 tu we all tak pergi sbb lari budget.

Destination nye was to Sarawak Cultural Village. It cost us rm60 per head. So mmg tak lah nk ke sana.

Destination 5 we all ke Water Front lagi. Hehe. Buying some more kek lapis tp at a different shop.

Bought at a shop name Mira ape jadah ntah. Haha. Hubby sgt tak suka to buy the kek lapis here. Wanna know why? Hehe. Kek lapis kt kedai ni mmg sedap tp org2 yg menjual nye macam siot jek. Customer nk beli and asked questions tp dorg buat dunno jek and chat among them. Hubby mmg pantang kalau menjual tp mcm nk xnk. So we end up beli kek lapis kiriman from friends jek.

As this was our last day, hubby mmg tak lepaskn nk berswimming. The weather wasn't as nice as we wish. Hujan renyai2 tp mandi jugak. Hehe. Abg was the happiest person to swim.

*Abg ni mmg pantang npk air jek nk terjun masuk since he loves water. hehe.

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DAY FOUR

theme colour: purple

8 January 2012

flight 1 was at 2:30pm (k.tania, k.metts, mamanym, hubby & abg)

flight 2 was postpone so dorg fly buy 2:45pm (maksu & family)

Before naik flight we all went for lunch at OTWC (Old Town White Coffee)

Hubby plak beli McD.

The price sini mahal kot. I mean for the fast food tp dh lapar. Makan jek lah. Hehe.

Byebye Sarawak

Hello Puchong

Sampai jek we all drop brg2 kt rumah and terus get something to eat.

Again, kebuluran. Haha.

A great vacation and yes, Mamanym wish to go again bila ada rezeki :)

[ohana] Hello Uncle Panda

2012-01-21T15:02:00.005+08:00

Tashreeq/Abaik/Uncle@Abg Panda

Uncle Panda arrived on 3 January 2012 at 3:30pm. Abg is so happy to see Uncle Panda after about 6months tak jumpa. Usually people said that kids can forget people easily kalau tak jumpa lama but Abg recognize Uncle Panda and tak henti laughing when their together. Tak tahu lah ape yg kelakar sgt. Hehe. Well, our year is brighter dgn kehadiran big brother mamanym ni. Well, he is not here only for holidays. Dia ada keje yg nk dibereskan. One month jek pun stay kat Malaysia then back to Sydney. Big brother mamanym ni jenis yg tak suka waste him time. He is ambitious just like our mama. Hehe. At least dlm adik beradik ada jugak ler yg minat dgn education ape sume ni. Okay lettew~

Ni ada news nk habaq kat angpa suma. Mamanym akn fly off to Sydney again this year. Yes, utk holiday sahaja. Nanti lah Mamanym talk about this lebih lanjut na. For now just know that Mamanym is happy but sad at the same time about this news :')

Til next time, take care.

xoxo

MaMaNyM

[me] the start of 2012

2012-01-21T14:42:00.005+08:00

from now on, i am known as

MAMANYM

Post for 27 Dec 2011

2012-01-15T12:24:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum...

This is my lil bro's gay partner for the past 3months. Haha. Kidding. This is King (haziq..klu xsilap ni lah nma btol die..hehe). One of tip's best mate.

Well, my lil bro's holidays are over. Well, that day time kt airport, no one really cried sampailah dh nk farewell, I cried. Tip said "jgn lah nangis" and so I say "aku xtahan". So I cried while hugging him (baby dlm trolley so no worries..cz aunty meow jga die kejap while mama tgh emo..hehe). Why I cried? Well, he's been a great help in the past 3months! He helped me in alot of thgs (I helped him too but not much I guess).

A day bfre we went to Sunway Pyramid. Ate at Delicious & played bowling. Best. Nti mamanym upload some pics yeah. Lgpn pix pergi karaoke with my sistah, Tia pun blm upload lg. So later I'll let y'alls knw about wht we did for tip & k.ya :)

For now, mamanym nk ckp some thgs to tip & some to his friends (ohh, don't mind my words yeah..hehe).

Dear lil bro...
Thank u for evrythg! Seriously I miss u oredy. Been thinkg whose gonna help me with thgs when I needed someone. Hmm. I hope u've enjoyed ur days here in msia & hope u'll be extra good there in Sydney. Got some advice for u. Dh kt Sydney tu, betolkn lah diri ko blk. U've forgotten thgs (hrp ko phm wht I'm try to say). Well, u've thought me some thgs bck when I was in Sydney (so aku kuat utk berubah) but when u're here in msia, u've forgotten the importnt thgs & hanyut dgn bnd dunia. Dh mcm uztazah aku ni hah. Well, I'm just saying. Sorry if I've been a such a burden to u. Nti klu aku byk extra, I'll pay bck evrythg I owe u yeah :) thank you.

To tip's friends...
Tq Jelly & King for sending my lil bro off to Sydney. Ni baru org kata kwn yg taw hargai kwn. Yg lain mana? Bce status somebody kata ada yg malas pdhal boleh jek dtg?! Bkn kt klia pun.kt lcct je.pun xleh dtg. Msa adk aku tu kt cni, korg gunakn die, lpak sama sume boleh?? Duit byk gak hbs ape sume, die siap tlg some of u (don't deny it!) pastu bile die nk blah, korg pun buat bodoh jek?!!! Pastu kang bile tny bg lah mcm2 alasan. Hmm. Sedihnye bile ade kwn cm korg. Friends yg hny bkwn for ur own benefits! Hampeh~ hope korg in touch lah dgn adk aku tu. Jgn buat xkenal dh. Klu x, mmg sah korg ni kwn xguna. Sorry to say this & taw korg mmg respect aku tp aku xske klu org buat adk aku cm sampah. Harap maklum. Mmg aku baik, aku blh skepala dgn adk aku & all his friends but once u mess with either one of my siblings, mmg nk kna lah. Just hope y'alls dnt judge me frm wht u see. Sekian.

Eh, OopPsS! Mamanym bahasakan diri 'aku'.haha.sorry lah ye. Mamanym mmg nk bahasakn diri cmtu utk dorg yg kinda buat mamanym marah (mgkin lil bro ok with it tp mamanym mmg xske). Depan2 baik bukan main, blkg2 spe lah yg taw kn (mgkin ada yg ngata mamanym bfre or even now). Hmm. Biarlah. Dosa dorg kite xtanggung. Kita buat baik, org bg taik, pe ada hal. Hehe.

Nways, it was a fabulous 3months with my lil bro. Hope he'll be better for the future. Same goes to sistah, k.ya.

To all in Sydney...
Mama, abaik, k.ya & tip...
Have a great new year. Happy 2012!

Ni nk cite. On the same date, one of my besty went to Rembau. Die smbung study. Cik Lieyana Yunus. Congrats dear! Well, the day I went bowling was the day she gathered around with some other friends for her farewell tp sorry mamanym xdpt dtg since I was with my family :( hope Yana doing ok there. Well, as read on ur tweets, u're hvg quite a tough time. Just b patient keyh, orientation days mmg byk dugaan. Lgpn u're doing diploma, mmg byk yg akn Yana lalui lps ni. Just take care, keep in touch & most importntly, jgn lupe kwn2 ye :) kot2 xjmp, happy 2012!

p/s: nti mamanym update blog lg for new year eve & new year :) wait for it patiently yeah. Roger & out~

Review Ombak Rindu

2011-12-16T17:05:00.001+08:00

Assalamualaikum...

Yes, yes, yes. Mamanym pun nk jugak buat review cite ni.hehe :p

Org kata Ombak Rindu ni adalah cerita dr sebuah novel yg diterbitkn oleh 'Alaf21' (xtaw plak spe authornye). Fyi, mamanym xde plak bce this novel, taw2 dh kua movie plak.hehe. Mamanym nk ckp congrats to the author of this novel sbb cerita anda dpt dijadi sebuah film hit tahun ni and congrats kpd pngarah cerita ni :)

As y'alls knw tht this movie is a hit! If I'm not mistaken on the first day ia di tayangkan, dh dpt keuntungan sbyk RM 1 million. Well, gotta admit the trailer of this movie berjaya utk menarik minat penonton to watch it as soon as it's in the cinema. First of all, barisan pelakon2 cite Ombak Rindu ni sgt best: Aaron Aziz, Maya Karin, Lisa Surihani. These three are the main characters in the movie. So semestinye lah penonton sgt excited nk tgk cite ni (tmbh2 lg boypren I plak the hero..hehe).

Jln ceritanya sgt menarik. Byk pengajaran yg boleh di ambil dlm cite ni contohnye character Aaron Aziz (Haris). Die seorg yg sgt negative telah bertukar kpd seorg yg postive. Maya Karin (Izah) plak, die jd seorg wanita yg sgt tabah. Bersabar itu adalah bnd yg baik sbb setiap org yg bersabar akn ade ganjarannye. Pastu the funny character, Lisa Surihani (Siti Jamilah@Mila Emilia..hehe). Die sgt negative dlm semua bnd. She's one person bila nk smthg, kna dpt! So dr cni kita boleh tgk bhwa semua character ni sbnrnye wujud dlm dunia ni. Cite ni mampu membuat kaum adam menangis (xpcye? Hehe..jiwang tp terbaik!). Bila tgk cite ni, kite kna feel. Put ourselves as one of the character. Bru dpt menghayati cite ni.

Mamanym tgk dh cite ni. Watched it with Sophia & her husbnd at KLCC on 10.12.2011 at 11.45am. Pg2 lg dh g tgk wayg.haha. Nways lps tgk cite ni we all g lunch & then hubby g keje (part time). Mamanym plak merayau lah. Ape lg. Hehe.jln2 sana sini with Sophia & Usop. A tiring day!

Sblm hbs tulis post ni, mamanym nk tegur mamat2 yg poyo2 macho kt lua sana. Korg suka ckp cite Ombak Rindu ni or cite2 yg sma mcm ni sume nye jiwang. Nk tunjuk korg konon nye tough "eleh, xmain lah ombak2 rindu ni.aku tgk ongbak adalah!". Ok, bg korg yg suka ckp mcm ni, meh mamanym nk tny, korg xpnh menangis ke? Korg tu hebat sgt ke? Konon suka tgk cite lawan2 tp bila bab cinta, bab nk phm pmpuan, hampeh! Ishk3. Kesian kt org2 yg cmni. Ye lah, xsedar diri :p cerminlah diri tu. Org buat cite cmni utk korg belajar dr ape yg pengarah cite cuba sampaikan. Contohnye dlm Ombak Rindu: ade stu quote "tiada apa yg lebih membahagiakan seorg wanita dr menjadi seorg ibu" and ada lg stu yg ramai org ingt "redha itu ikhlas, pasrah itu menyerah". So dr quotes cmni, ape korg dpt? Mst lah xde pape kn sbb bg korg tu sume skrip smata-mata. So bg mamanym, org2 yg mcm mamat2 macho ni sume are immature and korg nye pemikiran sgt cetek & hati korg kering! Jgn poyo2 macho bile dlm ht ade taman :p

Enough said. I'm done!

Superb Sunday, 28.11.2011

2011-12-15T13:46:00.000+08:00

Last month I was given the opportunity to go to a bengkel at RedGlow Academy in Seksyen 9, Shah Alam. Tq to my sistah, K.nya & her friend, K.fara for inviting :) hehe. Well I went there and met some of the bloggers (mamanym xpnh taw pun mereka ni and yes, I dnt knw who is redmummy bfre but now I do..hehe..sorry lah mamanym ni bkn taw pun sgt psl the famous bloggers around). Kt sni mamanym jmp K.Rose, K.Nurul, K.Afra, K.Azwa, K.Rabiatul and kakak2 yg kje kt RedGlow Academy :)

Well, went for a breakfst tht morning in McD (yes, k.nya blnje my fav brkfst set 'sausage mcmuffin with egg'. Woohoo!). Mkn while waitg for the rest of the guest to arrive. So sume dh smp, we all pun register & kenal2 sesama kami. It was awesome since it was my first time going to a thanngg like this (uhh! Me likey..hehe). Kenal2 then it's time for a talk given by Puan Hizmazaitul. She is a pretty lady and yes, I was inspired by her talk. Tq sbb now I hv a vision of my own future :p insyaallah, dgn izin Allah, I'll get to be successful as Puan Hizma (nk jugak success mcm my mom..die slalu dpt ape die impikn..it ain't that easy, I knw! But I'm gettg there). Chaiyok mamanym!

After the talk, ktorg g lunch. Fuh! Dpt aym penyet seyh. Sedap~ hehe.tq for the lunch ye kakak2 sekalian :) time lunch tu best jgak sbb dpt borak2 dgn some of the kakak there.some of them dh ade ank pun.bestnye dpt dgr their pengalaman with kids (ye lah mamanym ni bru jek lg jd seorg ibu, so kna lah share2 pngalaman dgn kakak2 senior..hehe). Jap, jap... Burrpppp! Alhamdulillah. Kenyang sudah kami semua. Hehe. So smbung blk program.

The last program was grooming. Bab ni mmg best lah cz I loveeeeeee grooming. Dr dlu blaja grooming. Mcm2 cara (duhh! Nma pun dlu mamanym amek dip in offce mngemnt & technology..mst lah kna cantik2 nk ke offce..tp hampeh sbb smp skrg mamanym ni hny lah seorg suri rumah..hehe). First we learn cara2 make-up for everyday use (smokey eyes) K.Arlina yg ajar how (die apply kt model). Mmg best sbb npk kot beza model tu bfre & after make-up. Ktorg jgak was told how to use colours in clothes and wht kinda accessories yg sesuai dgn pakaian. Some of the thgs yg they said, mamanym dh taw sbb dlu dh pnh blajar.hehe. Thn we all were given the opportunity to apply all the steps to ourselves. Best giler time ni sbb mamanym mmg xske nk make up tebal2 ni tmbh lg nk buat smokey eyes mmg xreti.

Dh hbs make-up (and dpt ptolongan dr kakak2 yg lain) I've found tht, I loveeee my face yoo! Haha. Lain sgt muka mamanym time tu. Npk flawless. Ajaib! Dh mcm kulit Rihanna. Haha. Prasan lettew~ Hehe. Well, actually I don't like to use foundation kt muka ni sbb nti npk fake (experience dlu..xpyh lah nk cite kn utk ape mamanym bermake-up..hehe) tp this time, I loike it so much! Xputih sgt. I mean I dnt look like pontianak or bapok!! Haha :p and so I fell in love with the foundation. Boleh gtu? Hehe.

It was a great day in RedGlow Academy. Seriously, thank u to all! Mlm tu plak bwk baby tgk wayang.we all g Subang Parade sbb mamanym dh addicted to chatime (pearl milk tea..yummy!). Tht night mamanym beli byk giler chatime for myself (ada gak beli for hubby & lil bro). Giler kn? Hehe. Nways, all thanx to my sistah (again) & K.Metts. Baby tgk cite 'Puss in Boots'. He enjoys it very much. Hehe. My fav part & fav cat is the "oOhhHhh!!!" Cat. Haha. Luv him. Funny plak tu. Baby plak sebok eating & dancing to the songs yg dimainkan dlm cite tu.hehe. It was great :)

Ohh, mamanym nk promote ni. Nk gtaw nti RedGlow Academy ada buat bengkel tp hny utk wanita (yg asli je ye..hrp maklum..hehe). Y'alls bce information given below ye. Nk taw pape pls leave me a comment. Orytee bebeh?

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So dh bce? Interested x? Jom lah join bengkel ni xslh kite mencuba. Mcm org2 slalu kata, belum cuba belum taw :) hehe. Pape roger mamanym ye. Ohh, lupe nk apologize, mamanym ke_malas_an lah nk upload pictures byk2 sbb ni post frm BB jek pun :p sorry ye. Lain kali mamanym upload one post tu sume gmbr jek ye. Hehe. Hope korg enjoy reading (pjg entry mamanym kli ni..bce smp lebam y'alls..haha).

P/S: jgn pkir harga mahal ke hape sbb bnd ni seriously mmg worth it! Xrugi klu pegi. *mamanym dh pun promote pd kwn2. Hope yg lain nk join juga :) and yes, I am now calling myself 'mamanym' bcs I want to! Bluerrkkk! Ske ht kite lah :p hehe..

Posto~

2011-12-02T23:54:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum...

How r y'allz doing today? Great? Not so? Hmm.. I bet y'allz wanna knw why my sistah is crying in this picha, righttt? Here's a posto for today...

Went to Alamanda to spend some time with my sistah, Teartika (Tia) since she's flying off bck to Sydney tonight. Went there with 5others: Afif Aydin, Tip, Darling, Yaya & Sarah. Had a great time jalan2 with all eventhough xde hasil shoppg. Hehe. Owh. Tq for the coolblog & famous amos (tip eh yg belikn sume? Tqtqtq).

Dear sistah (k.ya),
I think, it's better for u to go shopping in Sydney since the style here are not so nice (xmengikut cita rasa ko..huhu). Klu kat sana kan the fashion ikut season. So, it's easier for u to shop around since u wanted to wear smthg nice for summer & for going to class. Really gonna miss u lots! Keep reading my blog to knw perkembangan life about me & aydin. Hope to see u again someday (next year kot..haha..klu ade rzki). Til then, take care & thank you for everythg u've done for me in these 3months :) appreciate it much! The best moment with u is the moment we go to the dentist (the day aku cabut gigi..hehe). A moment for me to remember forever! Ohh, tq sbb pnah tdo kt umah aku even if it's only for awhile :) cherish every moment witcha sistah <33

Now, here's a storymory from me. Okeyh, td in Alamanda, first time sy menunaikn solat di shopping mall (baru taw surau ada kat sebelah kedai famous amos..hehe..tu pun tny makcik cleaner). I was so shocked to see that surau lelaki is kinda empty. There were only a few people in it while surau perempuan almost full. Subhanallah. Sesungguhnya sy bru taw bnd2 ni since I've never prayed while I was shopping (lalai). Sedih sbb bg sy guys lg senang utk menunaikan solat. Don't y'allz agree? Why I said so is bcs they don't hv to wear scarf or make-up.. <--ohh, wow! Btol ke aku yg ckp ni. Astaghfirullahalazim.. I was once like those people. Hope I'll be stronger & better! Amin. *muhasabah diri sebentar ye kwn2. Hehe.

Okeyh, first of all I'm not saying I'm good or better thn anybody. This post is just me saying wht I saw today. Sy xpernah taw bnd2 ni sume dlu. Since sy dh taw skrg, I would like to share it with others. To whoever yg willing to read this, tq for reading. If not, please don't bother. I say whtever since it's not your blog! Sy bukan blagak baik atau alim. I'm just a human being telling others what I've experince. Harap maklum! Xsalah we share knowledge & opinion about thgs yg btol. Kan???

Ohh, one more thing I wanna talk about here is that I think that india yg jual roti everyday kt area rumah ni is so good. Why? Coz he'll keep selling those food (roti & jajan) eventhough it's raining. Kire xkesah lah ciaca cmne pun he's always there. Semangat mencari rezeki. Pon! Pon! Pon! Pon! Rotiiiii~ hehe. Salut lah kamoo pakcik jual roti wlupun kamoo bukan bangsa melayu tp kita tetap 1malaysia. Haha. (Ok yg perenggan ni cm ttbe jek kan..haha..pdhal xde kna mngena pun dgn cite diats..hihi..sje nk bg pjg post ni..hehe).

Sekian, tq. The end :)

New

2011-12-01T08:21:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum...

How's life everybody? Hope yours has been as great as mine :)

It's been awhile since I updated a post. Sorry. I just don't hv the mood to blog. I am currently making some changes. Making life better thn before and improving myself as a person.

By reading the novel 'Sesuci Kasih Seorang Isteri' makes me feel that I'm not a good wife and that I should improve myself as a wife. It also makes me realize how important it is to be a good muslim (soleha). I love this novel & will share it to others so that they could feel wht I feel by reading it. Tq Dzie Tyea for a great novel.

A friend gave me a muslim magazine, Solusi. To be honest, I've only read some parts of the magazine. This is the second time she gave this magazine to me. Now I've realize that this magazine is full of information that I need to know as a muslim. Tq Dayah. Hope I can be as strong as you are. Syukur alhamdulillah, you've open my eyes & my heart to goodness. Tq for everythg & tq God!

Since Maal Hijrah has gone, I am opening a new book, a new chapter of my life. I wanna chge myself in everyway possible. Insyaallah, dgn izin Tuhan, I will be the best I could ever been. I wanna be the best for everyone. A better slave to God, the greatest wife to Abu Naqiuddin, the nicest mama to Afif Aydin, a good daughter to Jumiati & Abdul Rashid, the best sister to my siblings, a great friend to all my friends & a fabulous person for others :)

I wanna be more patient, kurangkn bergossip, need to be more positive & smile alot. Hehe. Kalau ada salah/silap sy pd semua, mohon ampun ye :)

Be patient with me people. Insyaallah I'll improve & be a better person in the future. A new me :) Semoga Allah memberkati perubahanku ini. Amin...

p/s: sorry lah ayt cm skema sket for this post.haha.muhasabah diri ni namanye :p

'Sesuci Kasih Seorang Isteri'

2011-11-16T09:54:00.000+08:00

I've started to read novels again. Reading novels is actually one of my hobby. Currently I am reading a malay novel (as shown in the picture above). Bought it in Ampang Park. A novel written by Dzie Tyea. The title of this novel makes me wanna read it. Now I am half way through it.

Eventhough I haven't finish reading it, I really wish and hope I can be like the wife in this novel. By reading this novel, I feel like I should improve myself to be even better than what I am now. I need to be like the character in this novel, Alisha bcs she is so perfect. Actually there are two wives in this story but I love Alisha the most :) What I mean by perfect is by being the best wife ever (that's how her hubby describe her).

It inspires me to change myself in everyway possible. I really envy Alisha. Here's some description about her:

She is a good wife. She asked for permission frm her hubby, Zikri to do anythg. She apologize whenever she feels that her hubby is hurt by her actions or words. She is a great muslim (solehah). She is not scared of anythg other thn Allah S.W.T. She respects people n she keep her hubby satisfies with everythg. She is so polite, soft spoken & she is alwys positive. Whenever she thinks negative is bcs she hv to be careful with the world. She is a great mom and the greatest queen of the house. A wonderful worker and last but not least, she is perfect in most of the thgs she do. She kept thgs to herself and alwys happy with a smile on her fce.

I really wish & hope I could chge myself to be the best in everythg I do (almost perfect like Alisha..hehe). I've started to make some changes here n there since I've started reading this novel. Tq Dzie Tyea for writing such a great malay novel. Usually I will read an english novel instead of a malay novel (hny bce malay novel yg akn buat sy improvekn dri..kire yg bg pengajaran pd sy..hehe).

Okayy, dh start merepek. I'll end this post now. Hehe. Kps para isteri diluar sana, bce lah novel ni sbb ia akn mbuat anda lbh tabah & sabar sprti Alisha :) insyaallah.

Happy Birthday Queen!

2011-11-12T16:42:00.006+08:00

woke up at about 9:00 a.m

baby slept for 10minutes before we went out to celebrate nenek's birthday

had late lunch at Al-Rawsha Restaurant, Kg. Pandan
baby was so cranky bcs he din't get to walk around the restaurant.hehe.
sorry baby but mama doesn't hv the energy to chase you around.hihi.

12 November 2011

Happy 72nd Birthday to...

KHATIJAH NAIK

my beloved grandma (mom's side)

i'll always love you nek

hope u did had a great time with us at lunch

and

hope u'll be around for a few more years

you're the greatest grandma!

xoxo

11.11.11

2011-11-11T18:01:00.004+08:00

it's a great date huh?
everyone has been talking about it all day. dunno wht's the big deal about it. haha,
yes, this is the mess made by Fatin Qurratuaini & Afif Aydin
slept at Kak Long's house to babysit her lil princess since her nanny is not available
check out what these two lil cuties do for the day...

aren't they soo adorable? hehe.
they do everything together. awww~ sweet huh? hihi. honestly, i thought it's gonna be hard to take care of Kak Long's lil princess but had fun for the day :) no kidding!
i'm sure my lil prince charming had a fabulous time playing with his cuzzy.
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Thank you kids for being such a good boii & gurl

Happy Birthday Yaya!

2011-11-11T15:51:00.005+08:00

10 November 2011
Happy 7th birthday to...
Kasih Andrea Qassandra
(yaya)

sorry my baby is acting as if it's his birthday party instead of Yaya. hehe. get so excited with the big balloon (and Yaya's present). hihi.
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suddenly remmbered the time when i first met these girls, they were soo young and shy. now they're attached to my family. aww~ growing up so fast. hope Darling and Yaya grow up to be not only pretty girls but to be the greatest kids of K.Lily. make your mom proud. you girls are adorable and Kak Nym always love you both dearly.
xoxo

Sabah Bah!

2011-11-11T11:34:00.004+08:00

16 October 2011
the day we fly off to Kota Kinabalu, Sabah by Air Asia

arrived in Sabah by noon
it was a sunny day & yes, the weather was hot as u can see how my lil baby is sweating like he's been running more thn 100m. hehe

swimming after such a long long time
ayah joined us :) great time

celebrate Dayah's 22nd birthday

17 October 2011
the day we spend the time exploring Sabah

went to Kepungit Water Fall
there's also Dr.Fish here (the fish that ate all the bacteria at ur feet) seriously, it was so cool. y'allsz should try it (they've got this fish all around in shopping malls)

18 October 2011
Lok Kawi Wildlife Park
thn we went to the beach but we were disappointed bcs we didn't get the chance to swim due to the jellyfish (had a very bad experience with jellyfish, so decided not to swim.haha)
then we went to buy some souvenirs

19 October 2011
awww...Sabah was great but it's the time we say byebye bah!

tq to my in-laws for a great vacation. had so much fun :)
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what is our next destination ey? hehe ;p

26.10.2011

2011-11-02T09:18:00.001+08:00

Birthday Lieyana Yunus
It's also the day I met them after soo long (nearly half a year xjmp rasanye).
A picture yg bikin panas~ haha. What a day =p

Tq to Mr.Hubby cz melayan si isteri wlupn hari cuti. He sacrifice his rest day for me :') sorry cyg. As y'allsz knw this date is the holiday smpna Deepavali. Pg2 lg dh keluar, had breakfast with nenek thn ke rumah Miss Yana ni to celebrate her bday. I really appreciate it Mr.Hubby & I apologize for making u tired plus didn't get to rest. It was a great day but it's the day I feel guilty for being a burden to Mr.Hubby (semua hny krna sy xboleh drive.boohoo~)

P/S: Mr.Hubby, I love you!

Syukur Alhamdulillah

2011-10-27T23:52:00.001+08:00

I thank God for giving me the opportunity to live my life until now. Yup, still breathing :)

To be honest with y'allsz, sometimes I do wish something could happen to me so I will know how people around me react. Will they cry for me? Will they be happy without me? Who knows, right. Huh! That's the truth of wht I really feel. People always say "I wish God will just take me away frm this world", in another word "die". Okayh, I admit that I've been in that situation before. Hehe. But thn my brain starts working. Haha. Now everytime anyone says like that to me, I'll say "have u done enough for urself & others? Dh cukup pahala? Will u be put in heaven?". Again & again I've been saying that to them & to myself but thn there's no answers to those questions. Hmm..

Being wiser & growing up ain't so easy. As I get older, my brain is not soo useless afterall. Hehe. I thank God for giving me the chance to live my life with my baby. I thank God for giving such a great gift to me. Everytime I accidently got angry at baby, I'll apologize & cry because I don't wanna hurt my baby. I wanna be the good mother but I just don't think I can be the best. I kept on thinking, why does God let me breath for another day. Everyday is a challenge for me.

Oooohhhkkaaayyy, I'm gonna end this post real soon cz I think I'm gonna start merepek. Hehe. So, my point here is that, don't ever wish u are dead! Instead, pray & doa for u to be better in every way possible. Change wht u can for a better & bright future. Don't ever look back to those blackholes & never give up. Just move forward & live life to the fullest. Cewwwaaaahhh! Hehe. As in for me, I wish I can improve myself to be a useful & successful person. Insyaallah. Lets all pray for the best in life. Amin...

P/S: kalau rasa nym ni merepek, xpyah bce ye.haha.ni berblogging pn sbb xle tdo.hehe.kbye.
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My teeth

2011-10-12T22:24:00.001+08:00

"Penat lah tggu mama ni nk cabut gigi. Dr pkul 10am smp pkul 12pm xhbs2. So tdo jek lah dlu. Baby ngntok sgt lah."

Hehe. Orytee, as y'alls knw I've been nagging about my teeth since 8months ago. Right? Hehe. Today was the day I get rid of those teeth but it didn't happn. Here's the story...

This morning I went to the dentist (dgn harapan gigi ku akn dicabut). I was so excited cz I can imagine myself eating all my favourite food again (esp chocolate) but it ends when the doc says that she couldn't get rid of my teeth. Hmm. Disappointed. The doctor injected me twice (bius bg kebas) & tried pulling my teeth out but she couldn't bcs I was in soo much pain (skt smp otak kot.cm nk tcabut kpla.bdenyut smuanya). So the doc says I hv to finish all the medicines given & come bck again next week. She also said my teeth might hv an infection (virus merebak lah plak.sshnye lah nk cabut gigi sengal ni.ishk!).

I thought I could get rid of thse stupid teeth today bcs I'm gonna travel to Sabah for a holiday with my in-laws on 16-19 October (tkt weyh nk nek flight dgn gigi cmni.adoyai~). So I guess I will keep this teeth until next week & hv to eat the pain killers to make the pain go away (trauma lah aku lps ni nk nek flight.hmm).

Hope this nightmare will end soon!!! Xtahan sudah~ :(
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Never again!

2011-10-12T21:36:00.001+08:00

On Monday I was not in a good mood. Same goes to baby but he was so active. I was grumpy so I scold baby that evening & yes, I regret it. I dunno why I did that to baby. Poor baby. Sorry syg mama. That night baby fell frm the stairs (dnt worry, xtggi pn, die naik one step n jatuh cz he was standing). So baby started to cry & bdn strt panas (terkejut agaknye).

I gave baby ubat demam but thn the next day he's not getting better. I was so worried so I told hubby that I wanna take baby to the clinic when hubby gets home frm work. So we did go to the clinic (klinik panel hubby kt Bangi). The doctor said baby is fine just demam biase. No need ubat punggung cz he can eat the medicine. When we reach home (dh mkn & mkn ubt sume), baby was ok for awhile. Thn aunty meow (k.nya) & aunty memets (k.metts) came to visit baby. It was around 10pm baby had his first laugh for the day. I was so happy. Tq to k.metts for making my baby so happy.

At about 2am I woke up cz baby was crying. He was shaking & he vomit a little. I was so worried so I chcked his temperature. It's 40.1celcius. Sizzling hot! I get so damn worried & I end up being a panic mama. I woke evryone up (my ohana). Thn bring baby to the clinic. The doctor says his temperature is soo high & it's dangerous for his health. Baby couldn't sleep until 5am. Sian ank mama. So thn I promise to myself, frm that day onwards, I will not scold baby anymore. I'll try to be better & a good mama. Sorry ye syg mama. Mama xbuat lagi keyh. Hmm.

So the conclusion here is that now I knw how my mom feels if her children is sick! Scary giler cz tkt pape jd. Well, budak kn, we'll never knw wht's going on with them tmbh2 lg klu dorg xle ckp. Akhir kata...

Sayangilah ibu & anak anda :)
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Dear Jannah

2011-10-08T23:32:00.001+08:00

Cantikkan die ni? Hehe. Let me tell y'alls about this pretty girl.

I have a pet-sis name Jannah (sorry akk lupe nma penuh adk.jgn mrh ye.hehe). I've known her for quite some time. If I'm not mistaken, it has been 5-6years now (yke dik? Hehe). Before this I didn't hv any lil sis cz as y'alls knw I only hv a lil bro, Thaqif. So I hv her as my lil sis but the truth is that we haven't met each other at all. Haha. Yup, yup, yup. Believe it or not, we hv only contacted each other through the phone & the net (xde jodoh nk jmp wlupn rumah xjauh mna..hihi).

I've known her frm a friend (sbnrnye die ni dlu gf pd kwn nym yg nym knal dlm laman web friendster.haha). Then we've been in touch & always up to date. I dunno why but I love her mcm adk kandung sndri. I've told her most of the thgs when we get to contct each other. I've been sincere with her. So far she hasn't make me feel insecure.

Now she's studying (xle gtaw mna die study & die ni dh bpny klu xsilap.hehe.xde chance lah ye my friends.haha). Wherever she is & whatever it is, she is my adk angkat yg dkira the VIP of my life. Hehe. Love u lah Jannah <33 keep in touch taw. Don't ever lose each other keyh. Take care dear lil sis. Muahhhhhhh!

Note: kalau nk ikutkan pjg lg cerita psl adk gorgeoua sy ni tp sy short kn lah ye. Smp sudah kang post psl die jek. Hehe :p
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Not a joke!

2011-10-04T08:58:00.001+08:00

What's the purpose putting a picture like this on a cigarettes box? Someone asked me "knp org mengandung xboleh merokok or bau asap rokok? Sbb ngade-ngade eh?" I replied "pnh tgk gmbr janin kt kotak rokok kn? Tu lah ape akn jd pd baby.xkesian ke?" That someone said "eleh, tu dorg letak sje nk menakutkn jek". I was kinda angry with that statemnt so I argue "kalau bnd tu xreal, xde lah gmbr tu. Buang msa org bg amaran tp ignore pastu bila dh kna kt batang hdung sndri bru nk nyesal lah?" & as I expected, that someone didn't reply a word. Speechless. Haha.

I just don't understand why people don't take this kinda thg seriously. This does not only apply to the mothers who smoke, it also apply to the husband. Korg xsayang ke ank bini? Sometimes it's hard to say to these kinda people. Nk kna biarkn smp kna kt batang hdung sndri bru nk pcye ckp org. So sad cz by thn there's nothg u can do to chge things. Hmm...

Always remember that u'll never knw what some thgs might do to some people. Renungkan lah ye kwn2...
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A true story!

2011-10-03T19:19:00.000+08:00

Sebuah kisah benar menyayat hati yang melambangkan kasih sayang seorang ibu kepada anaknya.

Mak pandang jenazah abang yang terbaring kaku. Walaupun muka sembap, perut membusung, namun mak nampak ketenangan pada wajah abang.

Mak ambil pisau. Mak potong baju-T yang tersarung pada tubuh abang, baju terkahir yang abang pakai, Mak terpaksa potong kerana kerana baju itu tidak muat untuk melalui perut abang yang 'buncit'.
Tapi, mak akan simpan baju itu. Mak tak cuci, sesekali boleh mak cium baju itu, sekadar pengubat rindu di hati.

Kemudian abah kendong tubuh abang ke pangkin yang telah disediakan. Lalu abah dan mak mendikan jenazah abang. Hanya kami berdua. Mak tak mahu orang lain. Biar tangan abah dan mak yang menjiruskan air buat kali terakhir pada tubuh kecil abang. Mak nampak anak mata abah, berkaca-kaca, setitis dua air matanya tumpah, mengalir di pipi, tapi cepat-cepat abah sapu dengan lengan sasanya.

"Bang, jangan menangis. Kita selesaikan hingga ke titisan terkahir," begitulah kata mak pada abah.

Setelah abang dimandikan, mak bantu abah kapankan jenazah abang. Pun hanya kami berdua juga. biar tangan kami saja yang memakai dan membalutkan kain terakhir pada tubuh abang.

"Kakak, jangan menangis. tak baik buat abang macam tu!"

Itu pesan mak semasa kakak-kakak mahu mengucup dahi abang buat kali terakhir. Abah pula selepas mengucup dahi abang, cepat-cepat abah menjauh memalingkan muka.
Mak nampak air mata abah berjuntaian membasahi pipi. Dan buat kali terakhir itu juga, mak usap dahi abang. Mak senyum, lantas kucup dahi abang.

Mak bisikkan: "Abang tunggu mak di syurga ya!"

Akhirnya, wajah abang 'ditutup'. Kami sembahyangkan abang buat kali terakhir. Ramai betul jemaah yang turut serta. Setelah itu, kami bawa abang ke tanah perkuburan. Abah masuk ke dalam liang lahad untuk menyambut jenazah abang. Alhamdulillah, semua kerja dipermudahkan. Abang sudah selamat di sana. Bertubi-tubi mak terima ucapan takziah daripada tetamu yang datang. Abang nak tahu, ada satu soalan yang mereka tanyakan pada mak. Soalan itu asyik terngiang-ngiang di telinga mak.

Tanya mereka: "Kakak uruskan jenazah anak kandung sendiri, tapi setitis air mata tak jatuh ke pipi? Kenapa kakak tidak menangis?" Itulah soalan mereka.

Mereka hairan kenapa mak tidak menangis, sebaliknya bibir mak tidak lekang dengan senyuman. Kenapa mak masih mampu tersenyum di saat memangku sekujur tubuh yang pernah berada dalam rahim mak dulu? Empat tahun dua bulan mak membesarkan Abang. Mak selak helaian demi helaian paparan kertas dalam diari yang sedikit usang itu. Aduh! Banyak sungguh memori yang tercatat di dalamnya. Membacanya bagaikan meruntun jiwa mak kembali mengenangkan perjalanan derita Abang sejak lahir hingga menghembuskan nafas terakhir. Mata mak terpaku pada catatan peristiwa lebih kurang tiga bulan sebelum Abang pergi. Mak rasa, di sinilah terkandung jawapan yang mak cari-cari. Jawapan untuk soalan yang mereka tanya kenapa mak tidak menangis?

Mak akan bacakan sedikit rentetan diari ini supaya mereka tahu kenapa mak tidak menangis, sayang.

Januari 2011- Perut Abang semakin membusung kerana hati membengkak. kata doktor, semua organ dalaman Abang sudah rosak, sudah 'reput'. Tidak boleh diselamatkan lagi. Tidak mengapa. Hati mak berkata, cukuplah! Tidak akan ada lagi pembedahan untuk Abang.

26 Februari 2011- Hari ini ulang tahun ke-4 abang. Dua hari sebelum itu, mak tanya, abang nak kek apa? Abang jawab, nak kek lori sampah! Hah Hah.. Tergelak mak. Abang suka sangat melihat lori sampah yang lalu setiap pagi depan rumah. Sebab itu abang nak kek bentuk lori sampah, Puas mak dan abah melilau sekitar Kuala Lumpur , tetapi tak jumpa kek macam tu. Tak ada yang sanggup buat kek macam yang Abang minta. Mak kecewa! Selama ini, mak tunaikan apa saja permintaan Abang, tapi kali ini mak gagal. Mak belikan kek coklat strawberi sebagai pengganti. Dengan perut membusung, dada berombak kerana sukar bernafas, Abang masih tersenyum dan nampak ceria melayan rakan-rakan yang datang, sama-sama menyanyikan lagu hari jadi abang. Dan ketika itu, hati mak sudah terdetik, mungkin ini hari jadi abang yang terakhir.

7 Mac 2011- Keadaan abang semakin kritikal. Perut abang semakin membesar. Abang tidak mampu untuk bergerak dan lebih banyak terbaring serta asyik sesak nafas. Mak semakin tidak tahan melihatkan keadaan Abang sebegini rupa. Mak bawa Abang ke IJN, rumah 'kedua' abang sepanjang tempoh hayat Abang. Kata doktor, tiada apa yang boleh dilakukan lagi. Abang hanya menanti waktu. mak angguk perlahan-lahan. Mak redha dengan ketentuan ilahi. Dalam hati mak juga terdetik, masa Abang sudah tidak lama lagi. Para ibu di wad tersebut asyik bertanya pada mak, macam mana dengan keadaan Abang? Mak cuma mampu untuk jawab, "InsyaAllah, Abang akan sihat!" Mak terpaksa cakap begitu pada mereka, sebab mak tidak mahu mereka semua lemah semangat jika mereka tahu Abang sudah tiada harapan lagi. Mereka pun sedang bertarung dengan ujian Allah apabila anak-anak yang dikasihi ditimpa penyakit. jadi biarlah jawapan yang mak beri itu kedengaran manis pada telinga mereka. Pahitnya, biarlah mak sendiri yang telan.

13 Mac 2011- Hari ini merupakan hari Ahad. Mak pinta kebenaran doktor untuk bawa Abang pulang kerumah . Doktor izinkan. Biarlah Abang habiskan waktu-waktu terakhir bersama keluarga. Dan disaat-saat akhir ini, mak mahu tunaikan apa saja permintaan Abang. Di rumah, setiap hari mak akan tanya, "Abang nak apa harini?"

Mak masih ingat pada suatu pagi, abang menjawab, "Mak, Abang nak naik kereta bomba!"
Mak termenung dengar permintaan Abang. Bila abah pulang ke rumah, terus mak ajak abah keluar. Abah tanya pergi mana?
Mak jawab, "Balai bomba!"
Sampai di situ, mak meminta izin daripada pegawai bomba. Mak kata padanya, Abang teringin sangat nak merasa naik ke dalam trak bomba. Pegawai itu cuma garu-garu kepala, kemudiannya menggeleng-gelengkan kepala. Belum sempat pegawai bomba itu menjawab, lantas mak tarik baju Abang ke paras dada.
Separuh berbisik, mak beritahu pegawai itu, "Encik, ini anak bongsu saya dan hanya menanti masa untuk 'pergi'! Benarkan saya tunaikan impian terakhirnya ini!"

Bila lihat perut Abang yang buncit dan dada dipenuhi kesan parut dan jahitan, pegawai itu tidak tunggu lama. Terus dicapainya kunci, dibuka pintu salah satu trak bomba itu. Lantas dia terus dukung Abang dan letakkan Abang ke atas tempat duduk bahagian pemandu. Abang nampak gembira sangat biarpun cuma 15 minit abang di dalam trak itu. Tetapi Abang tidak perasan, ketika itu mak palingkan muka selama lima saat. Sekadar mahu mengelap titisan air mata yang mula bertakung.

Hari lain, mak tanya lagi pada abang, "Abang nak apa?"
Abang pun jawab: "Abang nak naik lori sampah!" Mak dukung Abang, tunggu depan rumah. Bila lori sampah lalu pagi itu menjalankan rutinnya mengutip sampah, Mak tahan lori itu.

"Encik, anak saya teringin naik lori ni. Boleh izinkan sebentar?" Pekerja itu tertawa mendengar kata-kata mak. Kemudian, mak angkat baju Abang dan beritahu perkara sama. Terus berubah mimik wajah mereka. Segera mereka angkat Abang, letakkan di tempat duduk pemandu. Ada antara pekerja itu yang memalingkan muka, tak sangup untuk melihat Abang lama-lama. Sedih agaknya. Begitulah seterusnya. Setiap hari, mak akan tanya pertanyaan yang sama. Kalau Abang nak tengok gajah, mak akan bawa Abang pergi zoo. Walaupun abang tak larat jalan, tak apa.

Mak dan abah tidak kisah, kami silih berganti dukung Abang. Abang pinta nak tengok burung, mak bawa Abang ke taman burung. Abang nak main permainan robot, mak bawa ke kompleks beli-belah yang ada permainan seperti itu. Ke mana saja Abang nak pergi dan apa sahaja yang Abang inginkan, semuanya mak tunaikan! Setiap hari juga mak tanya Abang nak makan apa. Macam-macam Abang teringin nak makan. Murtabak, nasi paprik, milo ais, cendol, air tebu, air bandung , rojak dan macam-macam lagi, semuanya mak tunaikan walaupun makanan itu Abang pinta pada pukul 3.00 pagi.
Mak tahu dan faham, masa Abang bersama mak dan abah semakin suntuk!

27 Mac 2011- Abang semakin kritikal! Abang sudah tidak mampu untuk berkata-kata, apatah lagi untuk bergerak seperti biasa. Mata Abang kuyu dan Abang hanya mampu terbaring sambil memeluk Aina, anak patung kesayangan Abang. Mak segera pinta abah bawa Abang ke hospital.

"Kali ini kita bawa abang ke IJN, tapi kita mungkin akan keluar dengan tubuh abang yang sudah tidak bernafas!" Itulah kata-kata mak pada abah sebelum bertolak ke IJN. Mak mahu abah bersedia dan redha jika apa-apa berlaku. Sampai di IJN, abang terus ditempatkan di wad khas untuk pesakit kritikal.

5 April 2011- Mak telefon sekolah asrama Kakak sulung di Seremban. Mak minta pelepasan daripada cikgu untuk benarkan Kakak pulang.

"Adik tenat. Saya mahu kakak-kakaknya berada di sampingnya pada saat terakhir!" Mak pinta pada cikgu dan Kakak diizinkan pulang. Kemudian, Dr. Adura, doktor yang sinonim merawat abang juga datang melawat. Ketika itu mak ceritakan yang mak terkilan sangat tidak dapat tunaikan permintaan Abang yang mahukan kek berbentuk lori sampah.

7 April 2011- Pagi ini Dr. Adura datang melawat Abang lagi. Kemudian Dr. Adura beritahu ada surprise untuk Abang tengah hari ini. Rupa-rupanya, tengah hari itu tetamu yang juga rakan-rakan alam maya Dr. Adura datang membawa kek lori sampah yang Abang mahukan sebelum ini. Ada dua kek mereka bawa. Mak tak sangka, Dr Adura rajin menulis mengenai kisah abang didalam blognya dan ramai yang menawarkan diri untuk menyediakan kek yang abang pinta. Para tetamu bersama jururawat dan doktor menyanyikan lagu selamat ulang tahun untuk Abang. Tetapi abang kurang ceria, wajah Abang tampak letih dan nafas abang turun naik.

8 April 2011- Tengah hari ini, masih ada lagi tetamu datang membawa kek berbentuk lori warna pink untuk abang. Tetapi abang sangat lemah. Abang sekadar terbaring merenung kek itu. Malam itu, semasa jururawat mengambil tekanan darah Abang, bacaanya meningkat naik. Tetapi hati mak dapat merasakan yang Abang sekadar mahu meredakan keresahan hati mak. Malam itu, hanya mak berdua dengan Abang berada di dalam bilik. Mak pandang sayu wajah abang yang semakin lesu dan pucat. Mak duduk di sebelah Abang, mak peluk dan usap rambut Abang. Mak menangis teresak-esak bagai anak kecil.

Dalam tangis itu, mak katakan pada Abang, "Mak tahu Abang nak senangkan hati mak. Abang tak perlu buat macam tu. Mak tahu Abang nak pergi. Jangan tahan-tahan Abang. Pergilah menghadap Ilahi. Mak sudah sedia. Mak redha segalanya. Mak puas dapat sempurnakan apa sahaja hajat yang Abang pinta. Mak juga bangga kerana Allah hadirkan Abang dalam hidup mak walaupun seketika."

Abang hanya diam, memandang mak dengan pandangan lesu. Dan ketika itu mak menangis sepuas-puasnya. Mak juga berjanji bahwa mak tidak akan menangis lagi selepas itu! Ya, mak tidak akan menangis lagi biarpun abang sudah tiada lagi di dunia.

9 April 2011- Pagi itu mak pesan pada abah agar bawa semua anak-anak datang ke hospital. Masa Abang dah dekat sangat. Mak lihat Abang sudah kritikal. Wajah Abang sudah tampak biru, lebam! Dada Abang berombak, tercungap-cungap menarik nafas.

Abang sudah tidak mahu makan dan minum lagi sejak malam tadi. Pukul 8.00 pagi, abah dan kakak-kakak sampai. Mak suruh Kak Long bacakan Yaasin di sebelah Abang. Mak suruh abah baca juga, tapi bacaan abah tersekat-sekat kerana cuba menahan tangisnya.

Pukul 3.00 petang, Abang semakin lesu. Lantas mak ajak Abang keluar berjalan-jalan.
"Abang, abang nak tengok matahari tak? Jom kita turun kantin minum sambil tengok matahari!"
Abang hanya mengangguk lemah. Mak dukung Abang dan kita satu keluarga turun ke kantin. Abang mahu minum air coklat. Tapi Abang hanya minum seteguk. Kemudian, Abang lentukkan kepala pada bahu mak.
"Abang, tu tengok kat luar tu? nampak tak sinar matahari tu? Cantikkan?" Mak tunjuk pada abang sinar matahari yang kelihatan di celah-celah rintik hujan yang turun waktu itu. Abang angkat kepala melihat ke arah matahari itu. kemudian, abang menguap.

"Abang ngantuk!" Itu kata Abang dan kemudian abang terlentuk semula pada bahu mak. Tiba-tiba jantung mak berdegup kencang. "Bang, jom naik. Abang nak 'tidur'! Mak terus ajak abah dan kakak-kakak naik semula ke wad walaupun mereka belum sempat jamah makanan di atas meja.
Sampai sahaja di wad, mak terus baringkan Abang di atas katil.
Dan Abang terus merintih dalam nada yang lemah, "Makkk..sakit perut..!"
Suara Abang amat perlahan dan amat sayu bunyinya. Lantas mak letak tapak tangan mak atas dahi Abang.

"Abang, hari ini, waktu ini, mak redhakan Abang pergi. Mak halalkan segala makan minum Abang. Mak halalkan air susu mak untuk Abang. Pergilah Abang. Mak izinkan Abang pergi!" Mak ucapkan kata-kata itu sambil merenung jauh ke dalam mata Abang yang semakin kuyu. Saat Abang sedang nazak itu, mak panggil kakak-kakak agar mengucup Abang selagi Abang masih bernafas. Mereka kucup pipi Abang bertalu-talu dan mula meraung dan menangis.

"Kakak! kalau kamu semua nak menangis, keluar dari bilik ini. Mak tak mahu Abang dengar kamu menangis! Jangan seksa Abang dengan tangisan kamu semua!" Mak marah mereka. Mak tidak mahu Abang lihat kami menangisi pemergian Abang. Mak tahu, Abang akan jadi lebih sedih dan berat hati untuk pergi bila melihat kami menangis di saat akhir sakaratulmaut menjemput Abang. Mak tidak mahu tambahkan lagi kesedihan Abang untuk meninggalkan kami. Abah pula hanya berdiri di penjuru bilik, meraup wajah menahan suara tangisannya. Jururawat yang ada dalam bilik juga menangis, mak suruh jururawat keluar dan tutup tirai bilik itu. Mak tak mahu orang luar lihat. Mak tak mahu ada orang menangis di saat Abang akan pergi. Setitis dua mengalir juga air mata mak. Tapi mak masih mampu tersenyum.

"Pergilah Abang. Mak izinkan. Mak izinkan.. pergilah.."

Dan perlahan-lahan mata abang yang layu tertutup rapat, genggaman tangan Abang pada jari mak semakin lemah dan akhirnya terlepas...

Pukul 3.50 petang, akhirnya Abang meninggalkan dunia fana ini. Innalillahiwainnailahirajiun.

Mak kucup dahi Abang. Mak bisikkan di telinga Abang, "Tenanglah Abang di sana . Suatu hari nanti, mak juga pasti akan turuti jejak Abang. Abang... tunggu mak di sana ya! Di syurga!"

Abang, sekarang mak sudah dapat jawapanya. Mengapa mak tidak menangis? Pertama, Abang telah di takdirkan menjadi ahli syurga yang akan membantu mak di sana nanti. Kedua, apa saja keinginan Abang semasa hayat abang telah mak tunaikan. Tiada lagi rasa terkilan di hati mak. Ketiga, segala hutang sebagai seorang ibu telah mak langsaikan semasa hayat Abang. Mak telah sunatkan dan buat akikah untuk Abang. Keempat, mak telah menjalankan tanggungjawab sepenuhnya, sentiasa berada di sisi Abang dan menggembirakan Abang setiap saat dan waktu. Kelima, mak rasa istimewa dipilih Allah untuk mendapat anak seperti Abang. Mak jadi 'kaya' dengan kehadiran Abang. Kaya kesabaran, kaya tawadhuk, kaya keredhaan , kaya keimanan, kaya kawan, kaya ilmu, dan kaya pengetahuan. Mak telah beri segalan-galanya melebihi seratus peratus untuk Abang. Mak telah beri yang terbaik dan mak telah berusaha hingga ke garisan penamat. Sebab itu mak tidak perlu menangis lagi.

Abang.. biarpun kini hidup mak dan abah terasa sunyi dan kosong tanpa Abang tapi... mak akan sentiasa tersenyum mengenangkan saat-saat terindah kehadiran Abang dalam hidup kami biarpun cuma sebentar. Abang dalam kisah ini adalah adik Iqbal Fahreen Hamdan, anak bongsu daripada lima beradik. Abang masuk hospital seawal usia dua minggu akibat menghidapi lima jenis kompilasi jantung termasuklah kekurangan injap, jantung berlubang dan saluran sempit. Abang telah menjalani pelbagai siri pembedahan seawal usia dua bulan dan ada antara pembedahannya yang gagal, malah abang pernah disahkan 'mati' apabila jantungnya berhenti berdenyut. Walaupun pada awalnya doktor mengjangkakan hayat abang tidak lama selepas lahir ke dunia, namun ternyata anak kecil ini mampu bertahan sehingga usia empat tahun untuk meninggalkan kenangan terindah dalam hidup Jamilah (ibu) dan Hamdan (bapa).

Al-Fatihah buat Allahyarham adik Iqbal Fahreen.
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First trial: Rendang Daging

2011-09-28T02:41:00.001+08:00

Omg! Cooked rendang daging at 1am & done by 2am. Haha. Took the recipe frm my sistah, k.nya. So folks, who said cooking rendang is soo easy? It takes a lot of energy to cooked it. Kna byk bsabar wooo~

Here's the rendang daging that I've cooked for hubby bwk to his office (jamuan raya sesama offcemates). Rupenye mmg mcm rendang. Rasa plak me xsure. Haha. About the meat, ain't sure jgak (aku blh kunyah tp xtaw about hubby's offcemates). Pape pun if anythg about this rendang (complains or wht so ever), aku xtanggung ye. Haha. Mmg xdpt nk jamin rasanye sedap or not. Hehe. Sorry hubby cz this is my first trial (awk yg cabar sy msk wlupn awk nafikn statemnt ni..hehe). Hope people cn give me critics that I can use to improve it for future use :) maaf ye semua kalau kot2 esok lusa ade yg skt perut ke ape cz mkn my rendang. Hihi.

Enjoy your working Wednesday (28sept2011) hubby & all his officemates.
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Terrible Tuesday

2011-09-27T19:21:00.001+08:00

Yes, today is quite terrible instead of terrific. Here's why I said so...

Yesterday I've cleaned the bottom half of the house (kitchen & living room). As I was gonna clean the master bedroom, hubby asked me to do it the next day which is today (sbb hubby nk men ps2 so me nk kna layan baby). So we didn't get to sleep in the room bcs it's messy (byk sgt bju) & ended up sleeping at the living room (a challenge for hubby & I tdokn baby cz the tv was on..baby xkesah bnyi tv just that he loves to sleep in the dark).

Pg ni bgn & xdpt nk buat ape. Simply bcs the electricity was cut off by TNB sbb dorg buat ape ntah kt area my house tu. Well, they did give an early notice but I didn't get to read it. Thought boleh tahan but thn baby keep on crying cz he was sweating (tgk lah pix baby ni, bpeluh mcm mama suh die lari 500meter..haha). We ended up at k.nya's house.

Smlm plak hubby dh salah letak minyak gear dlm tmpt minyak hitam kereta. Our felali cannot be use. Hopefully hubby get it fix by today :)

Tq TNB sbb cut off electricity at noon (bangang!). Tq k.nya for rescuing me & baby <33 sorry hubby xdpt nk msk today. I'll cook & continue cleaning the house tomorrow. Insyaallah :)
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Moan_Day

2011-09-26T13:36:00.001+08:00

Look at how clean my house is. Haha. Soo messy huh? It's not all baby's fault (biaselah babies mmg buat sepah). Let me tell u how my house get soo 'clean' over the weekends.

Friday
Ada tetamu dtg umah that night (siapa tu aku xleh nk gtaw, kang ade yg buat world war III sbb nk touching2..hehe). I've cooked spaghetti thn mlm tu dorg blk lmbt sket. Ada yg offer nk tlg bsuh pinggn sume tp aku xbg (ada lah sbbnye..haha). Thn after they went back, I didn't even do anythg. Ye lah mls nk mngemas & dgn niat esk nye nk bgn pg2 to kms. Hampeh~

Saturday
Hubby went to his office utk merewang cz UTM nk buat jamuan raya that night. So siang tu hubby g offce & I went to work. Baby was taken care by aunty meow (k.nya). I finished work at 6pm that day (customer dtg last minute..sengal). Hubby came to pick me up and we went straight to Tesco cz hubby kna cari hamper. Didn't find any hampers so we went to Giant. Kna beli brg ape bgai sume thn upah org Giant tu to make the hamper. We went bck home siap2 & went bck to take the hampers + singgah Tesco utk beli my slendang & butang bju melayu. Kelam kabut. So mlm tu pegi lah jamuan raya UTM. Hubby menang hamper cabutan bertuah & I've won a hamper too tp category cm lawak. Menang for wanita paling anggun for the night (lawak kan? Hahaha.sje jek org UTM ni tp xpe, hamper aku lg bsr dr hubby..hehe). So here u can see that I didn't have any time at all to kemas the house kn? Ye lah blk2 dh kul bpe so terus jek msuk bilik & tdo. Hmm..

Sunday
Hubby & I were working so as usual, baby was with aunty meow. Again, lmbt bgn so didn't had breakfst + baby pn xsempat mandi & yes ktorg siap2 pastu trus keluar. Finished work by 5pm. After work went to pick baby up at aunty meow's house. After that we went to my mom's house to take some of my thgs there (byk giler brg we all amek..haha..tp semua brg aku, harap maklum). Pastu ttbe hubby tny "nk mkn x ma?". Haha. Mestilah aku kebuluran so hubby stop by a shop tot nk tapau food tp ade pulak pasar mlm. So we ended up buying food kt pasar mlm & went straight home. Smp umah terus mkn ape sume thn I put baby off to sleep pastu dgn niat nk bgn blk nk kms sikit2 rumah ni tp cm biase lah. Hampeh~

So as y'alls can see in these 3days, I didn't get to clean the house. Rumah pn jd lah mcm kapal Titanic yg karam tu. Hehe. Today is the day I clean everythg. Insyaallah if I've got lotsa energy & baby xmeragam, I'll get everythg done in a giffy :p hehe. Chaiyok nym! Rajinkan lah diri anda. 3, 2, 1... Start cleaning~
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Finally!

2011-09-23T13:52:00.002+08:00

Terima kasih Ya Allah krn mberi aku kbahagiaan yg ku nanti2 kan. Syukur alhamdulillah, my lil bro, Tip (not so little anymore) has turn 20 yesterday (22sept2011..happy birthday, hadiah pospone erk..hehe) & on the same day I've got to meet my baby sister, Adriana for the first time! Awww~ She's soo small & cute. She hv soo many hair (eleh, mcm lah rmbt aku ni nipis sgt..haha). Yesterday was a great day for me since I haven't met my papa & ummi for quite some time (masing2 bz). I've been waitg for this day for a long long time (pdhal bkn lma mna pn..xsmp stahun nk kepoh lah minah ni..sengal..haha).

Btw, my sisters & I hv planned to give Tip a suprise party & it happnd yesterday (tkezut x ko Tip? Haha). Thank u to all Tip's friends especially Lala (aweks) for coming & hbskn food. Haha. It was a great party (yg xbrpe nk party sgt pn..hehe). Hope Tip had a great time & hope he'll be better for the future. Enjoy your time in Malaysia bro. Take care & jgn lupe dtg beraya umah akk ko ni ye (ingt pjanjian ko nk blnje aku :p hehe).

So I would like to say...
Thank you God! Thank you Ayah (my father in-law..dnt ask why)! Thank you Hubby! Thank you All!!!

Syukur alhamdulillah Ya Allah. Terima kasih byk2. I'm soo happy :)
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Crown

2011-09-20T15:16:00.001+08:00

What is a girl's most precious thg? (Other thn her pride). It's the hair. As said "rambut adalah mahkota seorang perempuan". Eventhough now I am not like before (bertudung), my hair is still my asset. I still care about my hair. I love my hair. Haha. Honestly, I do miss my long hair but there are no regrets (konon jek..haha).

Nways, it's not wrong to still care about your hair cz some people yg btudung just couldn't be bothered about their hair. When asked why they'll say "bukan ada org nk tgk pn dh kita ni btudung.kat rumah pn ank & laki je ada". Okayh here's the thg, why should u care about others? Taking care of your hair is for your own good. Your own beauty & making urself satisfied. Sape lah yg happy klu npk slekeh? No one!

So girls, care for your hair (don't let it be messy..ada dandruff xpe, kot2 ade kutu dh mcm ape plak nti..haha). Care for urself. Make urself pretty (dalaman & luaran). Make urself feel good and just ignore wht others have to say. Cuma jgn lah bila dh jga sgt rmbut tu, ttbe yg btudung terus buka! Ishk, ishk, ishk! That's not good.

That's all for now sugar. Here's a picture of me masa dlu. Rindu rambut panjangQu :( tggu lah lg stahun dua, I'll get my long hair bck :) hehe.
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100days

2011-09-20T15:01:00.002+08:00

I wasn't counting but thn I feel like knwing how long hv I wear scarf. Looking at the calendar and started to count the days. Didn't realize that I've been wearing it for 100days :) syukur alhamdulillah. With all the dugaan, cabaran & hasutan (syaitan) I'm glad I'm still bertudung. It's been hard since I'm a girl who love my hair so much but I've chose to chge myself into better. No one forced me in wearg it. I think that's one of the reason why sy masih bertahan bertudung.
Thank you God, tq family & friends for supporting me. Hope to stay like this forever. Insyaallah. Nym, kuatkn hati & iman. Improve more for the future :)
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Afif or Aydin ?

2011-09-15T18:01:00.001+08:00

Whichever name y'all call him, he is my lil prince charming (for now). Ain't matter no more cz to me all that matters is that he is mine. People keep asking wht hubby & i call him at home. We call him 'abang' since we don't wanna call him by names. Why? I just cnt explain. Haha. Fyi, the name Afif was given by my hubby's family and Aydin was given by my mum. Hehe.

Enough about names. My lil prince charming is so active. Energetic but he has been a good boy so far. Syukur alhamdulillah. It's easy to take care of him (tp agak pnat gak nk jge..nk melayan lg..haha). Baby cn now walk a few steps. He loves to climb up the stairs all by himself and climbing up the sofas at home. He can't stay still (mcm tip msa kecik..si cacing kpanasan..xle nk duk diam..hehe). Baby can oso say few words (tp xjelas) such as 'baju', 'rumah' and 'gajah'. Yes, all in malay. Hehe. Slowly he'll learn some more. He loves food cuma he doesn't knw how to sedut pkai straw just yet. Insyaallah, lama2 nti blh lah kot. Haha.

My mum keep saying "nk jmp sayang nenny bkn nk jmp mama die..dtg Sydney, nenny blnje flight ticket". Haha. We just came bck end of July2011 & my mum is asking us to go bck there (sbnrnye nk baby jek tp xkn lah baby nk travel alone kn? Haha). That's wht hppn when u work overseas & your first grandchild is far away. Haha. Don't worry, he won't forget u, ma. Since zmn skrg we hv technology such as using skype in phones :) plus u keep on calling everyday just to talk to him (mcm aunty meow buat..haha..tipon just to talk to lil dino..hehe).

For now, I don't really hv a future in mind for my baby just yet (ye lah mcm org len nk ank jd itu ini). Bcs I don't knw how he will be when he grows up but I do want him to hv a great & better life. My baby loves taking photos so I usually take his photos or enroll him in a competition for babies (bkn nk bgga kn ke ape tp he is cute & sometimes evn dri sndri xpcye dpt ank secomel my baby..tq God!).

Okayh..enough said. Here is a photo of baby taken spontaneously by me :) while he was watching tv. Hehe. Tq to aunty meow for the great camera <33 hehe. Wanna see more of his photos? Take a look at his photo album in my facebook. Haha. Chowz~
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The answer

2011-09-14T17:48:00.001+08:00

"Kak Nym ngandung lg ke? Buncitnye npk lain mcm je".."Nym dh tmbh no.2 ke?".."Beb, hv u put on weight?"

Okayh to all with these kinda questions, here is my answer. No I am not pregnant! Yes, aku ni buncit jek lebih (tpaksa terima knyataan..haha). My second child will ade bile ade rezekinye ye (yes, hubby & I are planning..tu sbb tiap 3bln amek suntikan fmly planning). Hubby & I started to call baby 'abang' bcs he was so cranky when we called him 'adik'. Wht I mean by this is that baby mengada-ngada. Now he is alright with that nickname (less crying). Syukur alhamdulillah.

Sorry to disappoint some of you but that is the truth. No I'm not preggy. Haha. Xpcaye? Take a good look at this picture. It is a picture of the pregnancy test yg aku buat pg td (xmalu tunjuk kt cni? Haha.ni bukti ye kwn2). I'm not ready yet as y'alls knw I am still phobia of that 12hours in the labour room. Fuhh!!! Lama siot. Eeeee~

To hubby:
Kite planning tp klu dh rezeki, ade lah ye (ank pmpuan like u alwys wanted for a second child..hehe..insyaallah). Klu nk sgt, bgthu lah. Kite tukar plan. Haha :p kidding~

Note to myself:
Nym, terimalah hakikat yg ko tu dh buncit (bkn gmok). Sadis~ tp xpe.kna try to make it gone (mngambil msa yg sgt lma..haha). Xdijamin~ hahaha...
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Eid Mubarak

2011-09-07T08:28:00.001+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya. Maaf Zahir & Batin.

On this day people ask for forgiveness but it's just for that day.haha.why I said so? It's a fact.saying sorry for everythg they've done wrong to that person but not so long after that, they'll get into a fight.haha.so wht's the point of forgiving?hmm.

As said on my fb status yesterday:
"Ramadhan, konon2 baik muhasabah diri. Raya, poyo2 mtk maaf sana sini. Hbs semua bulan baik, setan makin menjadi2."
Hahaha.isn't this true?ok, here is an example of my statement:
In Ramadhan people shows that they are all good.fasting and praying in front of each other but the truth is dorg xpuasa pn. Sebelum keluar rumah, dh siap mkn, dh kenyang bru hati senang. Haha. Sengal kn?
On Raya day, people ask for forgiveness but then they don't really mean it. Mtk maaf thn esk lusa dh gosip psl org tu. Cmne? Hehe.
After those 2months, people start to show their true colours. Start lah mabuk & berdansa sana sini. Start dh nk bunuh2, simbah2 acid ape bagai. Ishk3. Terukkan? Hmm..

So my question here is what is the real meaning of Ramadhan & Raya? Hny stakat perayaan yg kita raikan? Mcm dh xde makne kn? Sadis~ renung2kan lah ye kwn2. We need to realize how we've wasted those good months for nothing.

Happy Eid Mubarak bloggers :)
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Youngest no more...

2011-08-22T19:13:00.002+08:00

Yup, I am no longer the youngest girl in the family & my lil bro is no longer 'little'. Hahaha. Why? Bcs we have this lil gorgeous princess. Our new baby sister, Adriana Abdul Rashid. Isn't she adorable? Told lots bout her in my previous post (read it, klu mls, lantak ko lah labuuuu~ hahahaha). As k.nya said, she is not among the T's but she will always have our love :)

Dear Adriana, u are very lucky to have us as your siblings cz u'll be suprise how wonderful we can be (yke? Hahahaha). Be prepare to get lotsa pressy frm your sistaz esp me :p hehe.since I've never hv a lil sis (except adk angkat yg sgt ramai), so u'll be spoil by me (tu pn klu ade rezeki ye dear..hehe).

So since I didn't get a baby girl as my child, now I've got a baby sister. So all the dresses out there (esp, pink kaler), watch out! Haha (hbs lah duet elaun aku g kat princess ni..hehe).
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Testing 1,2,3...

2011-08-22T14:42:00.002+08:00

Salam all. How's everyone lately? Doing great? Shopping & getting ready for Eid Mubarak? Well, this post is written bcs I am posting it straight frm my blackberry. Hehe. My sistah showed me how to post frm my bb with a photo attached. So now I'm trying :)
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a post on 17 August 2011

2011-08-18T09:57:00.000+08:00

My baby sister Adriana Abdul Rashid was born at 5pm :) welcome to our family cutie. This is my ummi's (mak tiri) & papa's daughter. Msa scan they saw & thought it was a boy (condifen jek time tu.haha) but they were wrong (kn aku dh ckp, xpyh nk pcye bile scan tu..tipah tertipu jgak msa Afif Aydin dlu..hehe) Ohh, yes, she hv a lot of hair (hopefully stay straight not curly like us). Hehe. My mom says that she hv the same nose as the rest of us (so, ikt papa aku ler ni? Hehe). Her weight is 3.2++kg (my baby msh juara, 3.6kg..haha) Papa said that she's so ringan (blm angkt ank aku lg..hihi). Nways, ummi was in the labour room for 14hours (if I'm not mistaken). Worst thn me but she wasn't in alot of pain like me. She was in at 2am and the baby came out in the evening (lamakan?? Hmm..). Well, there were so many complication but syukur alhamdulillah, semua dh ok. Ummi had to be operated yesterday. Glad evrythg is over now. I am no longer the youngest sister in the family (waaaa~ sadis!) And I guess she'll be my papa's fav girl frm now on (nym sedar lah dri hang tu dh tua.haha.pangkat hang dh jatuh.terima lah hakikatnye yg hang tu dh xlaku.hahahahaha).

Dear lil sis, nti kite jmp ye bila ade jodoh. Be as pretty as the rest of your sisters keyh (mak aih! Perasan lah pulok gua ni..haha.xpe, skali skala..hehe). Love u evnthough we've got diff moms. Muahhh!

Will upload her picture later aite folks. Tata.

Hmmm...

2011-08-10T00:17:00.001+08:00

ignored
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a post about 'berpuasa'

2011-08-08T19:12:00.000+08:00

As y'allsz knw, it's Ramadhan :) just wanna say some thgs about this greatful month. Ok, here it goes...

Wht is the meaning of 'berpuasa'?? Is it just fasting frm eating or drinkg? Don't think so. Well, here are some thgs I wanna point out to y'allsz. Why fast when u swear a lot? Why fast when u don't even pray at all? Hmm.. I knw that it is up to each individuals but these are some questions that keep running in my head. No offend to anybody aight. Just saying.

Fasting month is a wonderful month whre all the devils are kept away frm us (kena ikat lah katakan..hehe). So I guess if that individual is acting so violently or even say rude words, that's just them (bukn setan yg hasut). Hmm..

Honestly, I don't pray 5times a day. Yes, I am not such a good girl but at least I pray as much as I can (I knw this is wrong but I'm getting there..time will tell, changing~). Ohh well, whatever I guess (setiap org msuk kubur sndri..lantak ko lah labu~).

Gtg. My baby is awake and it's time for 'berbuka' now. Tata.

a post about my first sahur...

2011-08-04T05:00:00.005+08:00

Okay, as y'allsz know, I haven't been fasting. Missed it for 3days. So, today is my first day waking up for sahur. Yup, I woke up this morning to cook. First of all, there's nothg at home that I could cook (lauk sume hbs lah..nk tggu psr mlm hari jumaat, beli ikan & all). So I cooked ayamas (yg half hangus), cabbage (perencah yg xmenjdi cz blender bengong) & sarsi (minuman sejuk cz hubby xbiase mnum air pns..sadis..hihi). As y'allsz can read, yes, I didn't do a great job in cooking today. My brain was thinkg about smthg else while I was cooking (don't ask wht cz I dnt knw..mamai lah kot..or dh lma xmsk..hehe). Baby was awake too (sebok nk sahur jgak..hehe).

Done sahur I was suppose to put baby off to sleep & continue with wht I'm suppose to do (siapkn brg2 hubby nk g work) but I fell asleep next to baby. Haha. Don't blame me for being so tired. Nways, I'm awake now. Woke hubby up at 7:15am. Lucky it's still early (nasib baik xterlajak tdo..klu x, hubby gak be in trouble msuk kje lmbt). Hubby has gone for work & now I'm blogging. Yes, frm my bb. Ohh, I just love it. Haha.

Enough of that. To y'allsz who read my blog, I'm sorry about the small font. My sis told me that it's too small and it's hard for ppl to read. Is that true honeybeez?? Okay thn, I'll chge the fonts as soon as I got my hand on my netbook (hubby bwk g office..cm biase lah). I'll be using it permanently when I've settle this house.

I hope today one of my bff cn come & see me at home. I need somebody to talk to and the fact that I miss my bffs. Okay nym, u can stop writing & continue sleeping before baby is awake. Alrighty folks. Nightynight. Ehh, oOpSs! Wrong. Morning sunshine :)

a post to say: i'm back..booyah!

2011-08-02T17:08:00.001+08:00

Hye y'alls. I'm back in Malaysia :) woot! Woot! Now I am using my bb again. Woohoo! I can update my bloggy anytime, anywhre again. Hoorraa!!! I'm so excited to be bck here (honestly I miss aussie oredy..boohoo).

Nways, it's Ramadhan now :D I'm not able to fast for the first two days now. Why? Duhh! I'm a girl, I've got reasons :p (sorry guys, no excuses for u..hahaha). I hope I can strt to fast tomorrow. Ohh, of coz my baby is not fasting. Hehe. Lucky baby~ he has just ate his biscuits and his warm water while hubby is addicted watching the show call "Big Time Rush" (since he was in aussie..hehe). Later we're gonna go to bazaar ramadhan :) woohoo! I'm gonna search for my fav food: hotdog cheese & corn cup (pdhal gigi tgh skt ni..sengal..xkire lah..haha). Ohh, talked about my teeth, I had a very boring day at the dentist earlier today.

Send mama for her flight at 9am to Sydney (she was here for a week cz ade meeting..bz woman). Thn after tht I went to the dentist (hubby tpakse amek cuti lagi..smlm mak ayah hubby g umrah now me plak..huhu). I've waited for more thn an hour (siap tdo lg kot dlm blik chck gigi tu..hahaha..ngntok kot..hehe). The doctor came in the room "sini skt, sana skt???" "Sy bg ubt, mkn ubt, nti bru dtg cabut gigi". All of tht waiting just for tht? Meeting the doctor for only 5mins? It cost hubby rm40 kot for my medicines. Adoyai~

Nways, enough of tht. Baby is being a real spoil brat! Omg! I have to be extra patient! I cnt ignore him at all cz he'll cry and search for my attention. Not so much on hubby. Sometimes it just gets on my nerve (tmbh plak dgn skt gigi yg bdenyut ni kan..mmg lah mood tunggang tblaik). Sorry sayang mama. I'll be extra patient okay dear (having a child is really a challenge and sgt mnguji kesabaran ye kwn2..hehe).

Enough is enough nym. Stop nagging oredy. Haha. I'll update more later aite bloggers. Bye for now :)

P/s: tq mama for everythg u've done for me and my fmly!!! I could never repay u :( tq all for evrythg too and tq hubby for layan all my kerenah. Kbye.

updated!

2011-07-29T03:27:00.001+08:00

the new background picture for my bloggy

done updating this blog

(ye lah, skrg dh bertudung, kna lah tukar semuamya..hihi)

soon i'll update more post aite

wait for it...

just words...

2011-07-27T20:17:00.004+08:00

HEY BLOGGY!

i miss u so much! hehe. sorry i haven't got any time to update here. been bz here in Australia. been travelling here & there (alasan semata..hahaha). it's not that i don't wanna update, it's just that i don't feel like posting coz y'allsz know how i love to update my blog with pictures. i couldn't get all the pictures transfered, sorry y'allsz. now i'm posting this because i want y'alls to know that i miss blogging so damn much.

lately i've been bz taking care of my spoil lil prince charming. hahaha. but seriously, i am! baby is so spoil tht i can never leave him to play all by himself. he got all the toys he could ever ask for (yg free pn byk...adoyai). he always need me. don't get me wrong, i love my baby. it's just tht he is now a real bad attention seeker. ohh boi, don't think i'm gonna explain this cz i'm gonna nag all day long. hehe. nways, i am still in Sydney. be here for a few more days now. as y'allsz know i've been doing some countdowns (the day hubby gets here). now tht he is here (hilang rindu sikit..hehe) i'm kinda sad tht i'm gonna leave Aussie. no kidding. honestly, i love living in Aussie (cuma bosan jek kat cni cz xleh nk mlepak..Malaysia gak best..night life..woohoo!) but i love Malaysia more. hehe. whtever! hahahaha. if i start blubbling now i won't be able to stop and this gonna end up to be a very long long long long long post. wakakakakakakaka =DDD

looking forward to get back to Malaysia. uhhh! especially my home! i wanna redecorate everything in the house (mcm rajin sgt plak kan aku ni hah). i've been to people's house here & there. thinking it would be nice if i can make my house look nicer :) hopefully i've got time to do all. here's some of my plans when i get back:

1. wanna get my resume done

2. search for a job

3. plans for my baby's first birthday

4. get my license complete

5. catching up with my ohana & friends

6. redecorate my house

7. give all the souvenirs (tggu ye semua..hehe)

8. update pictures & my dearest bloggy

9. all prepare for Puasa & Aidilfitri (excited lebih pulak minah ni..haha)

10. change into a better Tasneem (insyaallah)

hopefully i can get all of the list above done. hehe. gtg now y'allsz. sleepy. i promise y'alls tht i will update my blog more after i get back aite. wait for all the pictures here & in facebook. night sugar!

xoxo

ohmegaddd !

2011-06-28T05:43:00.002+08:00

phone rosak !
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22days to go
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missing you ='(

-_-"

2011-06-28T05:39:00.002+08:00

found some things that i (kinda) can't accept
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not telling me the little things
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not important
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just keep it to myself

boohoo!

2011-06-23T00:48:00.002+08:00

really miss him
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whatever! don't think he cares!
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3, 2, 1... (-__-)zZzz...

after 5 years

2011-06-23T00:24:00.004+08:00

lunch at Pondok Buyung (an indonesian restaurant) with my high school friend, Beer Boonvorametee (he's from Thailand). he was my friend when i was 15 and studied in Churchlands Senior High School back in Perth. he was one of my closest asian friend. i have lotsa different groups back in those days. hahaha. nways, Beer came to Sydney to visit me and my baby :)
really appreciate it and he's a nice guy. he is lending me his apartment. it's in Canberra. why? haha. because my family and i are going to the Snowy Mountain to feel snow :) yeay! can't wait. i'm going twice cz i'm gonna go with hubby (mls nk cite pjg2 sbnrnye..sorry). why he is so generous to lend me his apartment? because he said that i could save some cash. instead of renting a hotel/motel room or something i could just bring my family and stay at his apartment (sweet kn?). omg! can't believe he is willing to do this for me (don't worry..die ni ade gf lah, stays kat Singapore)
thank you Beer. seriously i never thought i've got the opportunity to see any of my high school friends (i only go to high school in aussie..not in malaysia). thank you God for giving me the chance to meet one of my friend.
to be honest, i'm speechless.
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btw, sedap gak mkanan kat restaurant ni :)

happy birthday lil ones

2011-06-23T00:03:00.009+08:00

Darwisy Nasrullah b. Abu Nashruddin
born 12.06.2010
now dah setahun on 12.06.2011.
sorry dear, mamanym lupe nk wish kat awisy :')
btw, saya pgl budak ni, Ayam Goreng sbb bile tgk die saya rasa nk geget jek ;p hehehe.

Kasih Amanda Quzandria
known as Darling

Fatin Qurratuaini bt. Ruhaizad

both this princesses' birthday are on 22 June.
Darling is now nine years old if i'm not mistaken and Fatin is now 1-year-old.
dh besar dh Darling. dlu msa kak nym knal Darling was still little. hehehe. Darling is very intelligent in lotsa things espcially speaking. she just love to talk. non-stop! hehehe. she's fun to be with :)
sekejap jek Fatin dh setahun. gigi pun dh byk, xmcm awisy and baby mamanym. hehehe. this baby of my kakak ipar (k.long) is very intelligent to0. my baby always learn something frm Fatin. what i love the most about her is her name 'Ratu'. honestly, i think it's a great name and she's adorable.

awwww...soon my baby will be one year old too. gosh! time really flies so fast huh?!

oh!

2011-06-20T17:30:00.004+08:00

missing you hubby :'(
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miss ur warm hugs and kisses
(eh, oOppSs! terlebih sudah..haha)

[27days to go...]

mothers

2011-06-20T14:59:00.008+08:00

Dr. Jey & Nym
..my mama..
we are mothers :)

okay, first of all, org sume post about fathers coz it's father's day (in Malaysia) but today i wanna post about mothers :) why?! because i feel like it (ek eleh, nti aku post lah psl fathers..sabar ye kwn2). ahahaha. my blog, so whatever! here it goes...

a mom's sacrifice can never be measured by anything. nothing can compare to mom's love. why i said so? because i'm a mom and i know how hard it is to be a mother. don't get me wrong, being a mom is wonderful and it's amazing how u can see ur child grow. what i'm trying to say here is that, we all should appreciate our moms more than anything (even hubby/wifey).
moms can be very fussy bout things, just because they don't want their child to live miserably. it's hard to explain to people who haven't been a mom yet. first of all, i'm not saying fathers are unimportant, they are. just that i wanna let y'allsz know that being a mom can be tiring but fun at times.
kids nowadays always backtalk to their parents. why?! because they have their own minds and have little respect. usually kids will not listen to their moms because they are not scared of their moms (sebab mak tu baik..xgarang). why don't they backtalk to dads? because they are scared of dads. don't they?! haha. this is why i am saying that moms should be strict and teach their kids to respect them a little.
it makes me sad when i hear someone said "shif aku pg utk layan mama, org lain plak lah lyn mama mlm ni. aku penat". here are some questions for y'allsz to think...
when u were a baby does ur mom have a shift to take care of u?
when u were a toddler, does ur mom nag about playing with u eventhough she is damn tired?
when u were a kid, does ur mom ignore u when u want a toy?
when u were a teenager, does ur mom ignore u and didn't send u to school to give u education?
let me guess. ur answers must be NO! hurm. thought so...
what i'm trying to say is that we shouldn't treat our moms that way. change people. being a mom is NOT easy. sometimes i think, being a dad is much easier than being a mom. remember this people, God is great. anytime and anywhere ur mom can be taken away from u forever.
i'm lucky to have a mom. not like some of my friends. some of them has lost their moms (al-fatihah for their lost). appreciate ur mom.

i ♥ u mama
u're the best mom in the world
thank you!

p/s: seriously people, being a mom is very tiring! it's not easy at all but i still love my lil prince charming! muahhh~

official

2011-06-19T07:45:00.003+08:00

12.06.2011
okay, my last post was saying that i wasn't ready to change to wear tudung right? haha. well, now i am officially wearing tudung :) people been asking me...
"confirm ke?"
"pakai terus ke?"
"mcm mna hati boleh terbuka?"
well, here are my answers for all y'allsz. i dunno why i suddenly wanna change. well, bit by bit. slowly though. can't change drastically cz then i'll be one of those 'culture shock' people. hahaha. honestly, i've been wanting to change for quite some time. just that i always think that i am not ready. now i suddenly think i need to change now for the better (xkn nk tggu ank dh besar bru nk berubah kn?) being a parent does makes me grows up. thinking like an old lady. gosh! tua sudah aku~ hahahaha. well, i do need to change cuma lambt dgn cepat jek kn.
so this is it. i've change and i hope it stays. y'allsz doa for me aite :) semoga kekal smp akhirat. i wanna wear it properly. the right way. hubby loves it (duhh! semestinye lah kn? hahaha). hope i'll be better in the future. amin~

p/s: aku bukan post gmbr kt fb utk sje tunjuk2 and nk org puji aku pkai tdung cantik ke x. it's my fb, so what?! my image may be change but i am still me. rock on bebeh! ;p

not ready yet -_-"

2011-06-09T21:28:00.003+08:00

my new display picture in fb...
can y'alls see hubby's comment on my picture here?
"Abu Naqi: Cantik org tu pkai tudung...xpk nk pkai trus ke?"
hehe. he compliments me :) yeay! love you papa cyg! *ngee~ (gewdix jap..haha)

i took this picture specially for my hubby. that's the truth behind this pix. why? because i knw hubby wanted me to wear scarf but he just don't wanna force me to it. i appreciate that so much! i mean he respects me. i have the intention to chge and wear scarf but i wanna do it for myself not for hubby or for anyone else. i mean i wanna do it seikhlas hati dgn niat yg betul. i don't wanna be a hypocrite and not wearing scarf sincerely (jap bukak jap tutup..malu lah).
people nowadays wears 'tudung' just to cover up or just because dh biase (some people..not all..sorry kalau ade yg terasa..bkn niat utk kena kn sape2 ye..harap maklum). what i can see from public, they wear 'tudung' and didn't cover themselves up properly (pkai bju t-shirt yg nearly xberlengan thn pakai tudung..atas tutup, bwh bukak..apakah?!). honestly, it hurts my eyes. i mean klu nk pkai tdung, wear it properly. sorry to y'alls yg terasa. this is just what i feel inside.
i wanna wear scarf and cover myself properly. from top to toe and i wanna be better in most things. such as sembahyang (kalau blh xmo skip2 like now..yes, i am telling y'alls that i am not so alim..so whtever!). i wanna be clean. i just hope hati ini terbuka utk pakai tudung permanently.
need y'alls to support me in this. niat dh lama ade. cuma xthu bile nk ready nye. i hope hubby will help me go through this *sigh! -_-"

to all...sorry, i'm not ready yet. i will soon. maybe. insyallah. doakan nym ye :) *ngee~

said so...

2011-06-09T21:17:00.003+08:00

found a magazine with this article in it.
a famous hollywood actor, Kate Hudson said so... "BEING A PARENT MAKES YOU GROW UP". that's what i'm going through right now. i just turned 21 and i don't feel like 21. i feel like i'm older. it's so unexplainable. i mean, people said that i am matured in thinking. yeah, no doubt. haha.
for me, being a mom does make me a grown up. i feel as if i'm in the late 20's. hehe. i think like one too. i just can't be the silly, crazy bitch anymore. all i could think about is my child. that's what makes me grows up. i have no regrets though. i love being a parent especially to my lil prince charming, Afif Aydin ♥

today...

2011-06-09T12:08:00.005+08:00

DISAPPOINTED!
SAD ='(
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it's okay
i'm fine -_-"
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positive
happy =)

lil dino

2011-06-07T23:05:00.005+08:00

Good Morning...
Rise and shine..baby is an early riser. yup, he is. when baby is awake, he usually love to woke papa up then if papa ignore baby, he'll woke mama up cz he knows mama will never ignore him. hehe. cheecky lil dino. he always wakes up with a smiley face.

Goodnight...

Sweetdreams...he smiles when he wakes up and going to sleep. hehe. baby loves to play around before he's going to sleep. making himself tired. he bullies everyone and do anything to get everyone's attention (squeeking lil dino sound..haha). my lil prince charming is a happy boy :) (especially when he gets food)

♥ Afif Aydin

p/s: here in Sydney, he eats a lot! seriously, A LOT! his favourite for now are pancakes..hahaha..

forever 21

2011-06-07T22:47:00.007+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TASNEEM!
YOU'RE OFFICIALLY 21 NOW!
HIP HIP HOORAAYYY!!!!

on my birthday eve, mama treats me supper at Pancakes On The Rock. tqvm. on my birthday, k.ya made me a birthday pancake :) love it (baby loved it more than i do..hehe). on the night of my birthday, mama's friends give me a suprise (my siblings pn plan suprise ni..thanx wlupn xbrpe nk suprise..hehe..it's the thought that counts). so there's makan-makan at mama's house (mama don't really like suprises..hehe..die pn xtahu yg kwn-kwn die nk dtg for mkn-mkn..hehe). so there's three birthday girls; kak ayu (1st june..same like my eldest sis, k.nya), azyura (2nd june) and me on the 4th june :) had a great time. thank you all for the 'suprise' party. haha. really appreciate it.
btw, as y'allsz know i always have to get pressy on my bday (xkire lah dah tua ke ape..haha..nk jugak!). i've got an external hard disk, guess handbag and a necklace saying 'heart 21' frm mama. i've got a birthday card + a leopard print wallet frm k.ya. a sling bag frm tip and a phone (samsung galaxy) frm abaik. ohh, not to forget aunty Nani (mama's friend) got me a flower and her daughter got me a set of accessories (love it but i think i'm gonna give to k.ya cz she wore those kinda accessories more than i do..sorry). thank you all..!

my first status in on 4th June in fb...
thank you for wishing me..muahhh~

my second status on 4th June in fb...
some didn't wished me at first, maybe coz they don't know it's my birthday..haha..thanx y'allsz..

this is my favourite wish of all...

it's from my sistah, k.nya (Nia Rashid)..she makes me cry cz we were remembering the times when i was a messy kid with a big afro curly hair..LOL!
love you sistah!

p/s: to all in malaysia, nti i'll claim my pressy ye..hehe..especially from hubby, k.nya and my besties! hahahahaha *evil laugh~

missing YOU!

2011-06-07T22:45:00.004+08:00

can't believe he wrote this on his fb status =')

dunno why but almost everyday i wrote my status saying i miss hubby so much. mesti org dh bosan bace status aku kan. hurm. lantak lah~

papa cyg...

2011-06-07T22:36:00.004+08:00

mama miss you soo much papa cyg!
y'allsz may see me having fun here with all the pictures i've uploaded in fb, the truth is i really miss my hubby. so bad that i cried almost every night. i have to call hubby everyday and almost everynight (kalau xtertido) so i can sleep well. hurm. too bad that hubby have some work to settle (tu yg hubby dtg lmbt..in july)

in the car on the way to the airport...
we miss you papa :( hope u're doing fine all by yourself in malaysia. ohh boii, july pls come faster! waaaaaaa~

baby misses you papa!

baby always cries without no reason. mostly at night. missing hubby so much that makes him cries and can't be a good boy like in malaysia. hurm. baby sleeps with mama (kena dakap kat badan mama, mcm koala). sian baby...

p/s: papa, cepat lah dtg. adik and mama rindukan papa sgt2 ni ;(

here & there in Sydney

2011-06-07T22:16:00.004+08:00

Sydney Opera House
June 3, 2011

i wanted to have a picture at the Opera House so bad cz ye lah, dh nama pn kt Sydney kn, msti lah Opera House is the key place to go here. i'm gonna wait til hubby is here so i could take a family picture at the Opera House. can't wait. pose here, pose there. hahaha. iPhone tip jadi mangsa lah jwbnye..

some places i've been in Sydney...

Hurtsville (shopping mall with lotsa shops and it's the nearest to mom's house)
Eastgarden (another great shopping mall)
DFO (a place where there's soo many clothes shops that has lotsa sales..i'll go extra crazy here!)
Bondi Junction (another shopping mall that has so many branded items such as Coach, LV etc.)

there are more places i've been but i just couldn't remember the name of the places. hahaha. nways, i'm enjoying myself. so does baby (sangat spoil bdk kecik ni kt cni. damn it! nti blk msia, hbs lah aku.!!!). eventhough we're having fun here (kinda), we would enjoy it better if hubby is here ;(

counting the days til hubby and nenek are here to join us :)
39days to go...

p/s: i'm addicted to the coffee here: latte, cuppucino, mocha =p

Sydney, Australia

2011-05-24T17:55:00.007+08:00

20 May - 31 July 2011

Home in Bexley :)

baby and i are in Sydney. visiting my mom and siblings. hubby is coming soon with my grandma. for this post i'm not gonna write much aite coz i'll be updating more posts soon (xde pix xbest lah nk berblogging..hehe). baby and i fly off to Sydney on 20.05.2011. hubby and nenek will fly off on 17.07.2011. a long time for me to wait (kerinduan lah jawabnye aku ni kan..adoyaii). why? coz hubby gotta work. hurm. nways, i'm glad that i am finally back in Aussie. hahaha. it's winter now. so we are freezing. hehehe. i'm here for a few days now and i've gained weight. yes, i have (so jgn nk kata aku ni slim sgt ye..hahaha..gemok sudah..ye lah mana xnye..asyik melantak jek..hehehe). ohh well, it's fine by me. haha. now let me tell u a bit about baby. he is soo not like he used to be. he cries a lot! (meragam xhbs2). okay, i know that he misses his papa but then i did call hubby from time to time just to let him talk to his papa. i did bring hubby's clothes with his smell on it but then it didn't last long cz then the shirt just smell soo bad. hehe. i think it's bcs of the weather here. ohh gosh! time pls fly as fast as u could so that hubby and nenek is here. i hope baby will be as he was. just like in Malaysia (mama pn rindu gak kat papa..huhu..ttbe nk buat confession plak minah ni..hahaha..sengal).
so to y'alls out there, if u wanna contct me, pls just buzz me in FB cz i am using my siblings or my mom's phone to contct with all of u. missing all of u soo much and to my friends in Aussie (wherever), pls contct me. i really wish to see any one of u. missing y'alls too.
i'll update some more soon aite. i'll upload some pictures of me and baby here in Sydney. til then take care blog readers :)
muahhhh!

p/s:
to my beloved hubby: papa cyg...i miss you soo much! i'm sorry for whtever mistakes i did. didn't do it on purpose :( pls forgive me ea cyg. hurm. i love you! can't wait til u are here with us.
and to my sistah, k.nya: aydin pn rindu kat aunty meow. kt sni aydin asyik meragam xberhenti. bully mama. hehe ;p nti mama upload kn gmbr aydin just for u to see okay aunty meow? :)

soon there'll be a post:
about my bff's lil princess, Nur Damia Batrisya (Jue's daughter)
about me and baby frm the day we fly off to Sydney til recently (with pictures)

birth_sary

2011-05-14T13:44:00.002+08:00

11 May 2011
Happy Birthday to hubby & Happy Anniversary to us ♥

dear hubby...
happy birthday and hope you'll enjoy being older ;p hehehe. i hope you live as long as i am and i hope u'll be wiser :)
happy anniversary to us. syukur alhamdullillah we are still together. so many things happened in the past years. so i hope this year will be better. i also hope we'll be a better parents and better in everything. improving here and there and become more matured in thinking. why i said so?! because we're young and i know our mentality is not yet to the level we're supposed to. hurm. don't worry. we'll help each other out aite. i'll always love you and you know that. i know you love me too. just that you don't show as much as i did ;p

papa cyg...
i know this date is your birthdate but it's no longer just your special day. it's our special day too and i really hope every year we do something on the day cz i'm use to celebrating important dates. why?! because to me it is so hard for us to get to this date. why?! because in that time, you'll never know what's gonna happen. so i really appreciate everything and so, i celebrate it. hope you understand :)

on this date we did kinda nothing. i prepared a lot of things before this date. i bought hubby so many presents (2in1..for his bday and our anni). on that day, my besty, Tyana and her boyfie, Adi were at my house. so i asked them for their help. i went to buy a cake and that's when 'Birth_sary' pops up in my head. hehehe. thanx bonda and abi<-- baby call them this..hehe.
then after hubby came back home from work, i do nothing but to look pretty (hahaha..trying so hard). hubby did nothing too. so, i have to asked him and be a lil 'gewdix' to take me out. somewhere. anywhere, i don't mind. huhu. sopi, isma (his girlfriend) and lisa (isma's friend) were at the house too. i asked sopi to take hubby out of the house while i prepare some suprise for him (ye, terbalik kan..ptotnye husband yg suprisekn wife..tp xpe..i'm glad i did something). it was so fast that i just don't know what to do cz at the time hubby, me and baby were all dressed up to go out. then poofftt! suprised! hehehehe...
yes, hubby was so suprised. hahaha. then sopi, isma and lisa offered to take care of baby and let us went out romantically as a couple. at first hubby said "alaaa, xpe lah..xbiase.bia ktorg bwk baby". not so romantic aite? haha. he just used to going out as a family thn just going out with me. hurm. speechless. huhu. ohh well, at last, we went out just the two of us. where? to iOi maLL, pucHong (xde lah jauh mana pn cz it was late..tkt shopping mall tutup by 10pm). hubby bought me my presents. i've got some t-shirts and a handbag. tqvm hubby. ohh btw, wanna know what i bought for hubby? hehe. for his birthday i've got him a perfume (dunhill) and a tiger towel. for anniversary, i've got him a box of chocolate and a set of wallet+belt (alain deloin..hahaha..xthu how to spell it..lol).

so that's the whole story about the day i call BIRTH_SARY :)

p/s: sorry my pix was not in here cz it was taken in my bb and my bb ROSAK! damn it!

nufink

2011-05-14T13:41:00.002+08:00

this picture was taken by Ramesh (one of the workers)...tqvm
we are working at the same part time place (Delicious Catering). don't worry, we took this picture when there's no customer at all. yes, no customer! getting bored and guess what?! the event was held for 8hours ;p hehehe..
i just love working with hubby :)

hubby's adventure

2011-05-14T11:49:00.002+08:00

29 April - 2 May 2011
Gunung Stong, Kelantan

this pix was taken after hubby is out from a cave. smelly messy hubby :P
it was cool cz hubby got the experience to go into a cave. bravo!

this pix was taken when hubby made it to the top of 'Gunung Stong'. he sent me both of these pictures. at the time i was in JB.

it was a weird slow week cz kinda miss hubby soo much that time. hehe. i was all alone in Jb (baby was there too). well, i was hubby's first time going to an adventure like this. soon there'll be more and he's excited about it. huhu. ohh well, glad he enjoys it. lol.

p/s: yes i know, my hubby is getting chubbier =p hehehe...

a falling post

2011-05-09T14:10:00.000+08:00

Roll here. Roll there. Rolling. Rolling. Dushhhh! Uwaaaaa~

Baby keep on falling from beds and frm everywhere. Okay, here's what happen...

The first time baby fall frm a bed is in Jb. The day I went bck to visit my in-laws in Jb, Dayah (bini adk hubby) asked "anak kau ni pernah jatuh katil", I answered and said no. On tht night, I slept on the bed with baby and my sister-in-law, kak cik. Baby slept in the middle of the bed. Thn on the morning I heard "dushh! Uwaaa~" baby fell down after rolling over and over whn he was asleep. Why it happend? Because kak cik was not there on the bed tht particular morning cz she got some thgs to do. Hahahaha. Frm here I cn say, "Dayah, mulut kau mmg masin". Hehehehe ;p

The second time baby fell was on last Saturday. Where? At my sister's (k.nya) house. Hubby & I were working, so k.nya willingly accpt to babysit my lil prince charming. Why I knw baby fell frm her bed? Haha. It's bcs she told me. She said "td aydin jatuh dr katil k.nya..tp die nanges skali thn ok dh". Hehe. Yup, my baby is strong. Goodboy my dear. That day whn hubby & I went to pick baby up at k.nya's house, baby was blurr. As if he doesn't really recognize his own parents. Huhu. But hey, my baby is a cheerful baby, so he was okay whn we arrved home :) yeay!

The third time baby fell was this morning. Wht happen? Let me storymory y'alls. I woke up at about 7:30am (yup, bgn lmbt, dunno why). So hubby was late for work. I woke hubby up and asked him to look after baby while I help him to get his work things ready. So I went downstairs to iron hubby's clothes thn I heard a real loud dushhh! Followed by "uwaaaa~". I left the iron just like tht and ran upstairs to my room (I was shaking frm body to toe). Hubby hugged baby. I was so shocked and angry at the time, so I accidently talk loudly to hubby (a mom's reaction). Sorry hubby, didn't mean to. Huhu.

So my baby is still ok but he's all wacky. Haha. Why? Cz he laugh all of the sudden n berry for soo many times thn cry and laughing at the same time. Hehe. Funny adorable sayang! My baby is tough and it's normal whn babies fall here and there (kalau jatuh time nk berdiri tu, dh byk kali, xyah ckp lah..haha). It's part of the thgs they go through in growing up (lebam sana sini..hehe). Just tht as a mom, I was scared if anythg hppn to baby. Boohoo~ who doesn't right?! Lol.

That's the storymory about my falling lil prince :p

a post about karma

2011-05-08T13:46:00.001+08:00

One thing I kinda believe in, is karma. Yup. Why? Coz it's happened in my life for so many times. What is karma? Have u heard ppl been saying "what goes around comes around"..? That's karma bebeh. Okay, here's another question that's in ur mind, why I wanna write about this topic? Because lately, there are so many karma that I can see. Some are good karma, some are real bad karma.

Another thing about me now is that I don't wanna say much about others. Why? Because I'm afraid of karma. What we say to others, might happen to us. So be careful what u wanna say. Usually people who gets karma is the people who like to say so many things about others such as 'kutuk mengutuk'. It's not good cz when things happen to u, u might not like it & can't accept it.

So, stop talking bad stuff about others or do bad thgs to others. Karma will find u and hit u right on ur face! Sooner or later. Here some things I wanna say to the people out there who just can't keep their mouth shut..:

Xpayah lah nk kutuk org or ketawakn org. Kalau buat jahat kat org, buruklah padahnye. Bila benda dah terjadi dekat kamu, barulah kamu tahu mcm mana rasanye dikutuk atau ditertawakn. So sedar2 lah diri tu. Semua org dlm dunia ni ade kelemahan and kelebihan masing2. Bila kita ckp org, nti kena blk kat kita. Beringatlah. Sekian.

comot

2011-04-26T16:47:00.003+08:00

budaQ coMot

aunty meow and aunty memets gave baby a chocolate heinz biscuit. this is wht hppn when baby eat somethg all by himself. he eats it and rub it on his face. all over the face. lol. why? cz he is sleepy but he still wanna eat. rub his eyes while having chocolate biscuit in his hands. haha.

*geram~

baby & mama

2011-04-26T16:41:00.002+08:00

the difference between a long pretty hair and a funky short hair are that baby can no longer pulll mama's hair. haha. mama is loving her hair cz it's easier for mama to take care of baby. why? it's easier for mama to do work, faster. okay here's an example, baby is crying while mama is taking a shower (washing hair). mama don't need an hour to do so. mama can do it faster and get to the crying baby :)

mama loves it. baby loves it. papa? hurm..dunno ;p

no matter what people wanna say, mama is happy that she had a haircut and no regrets!

the end.

processing...

2011-04-26T16:19:00.003+08:00

Saturday, 23.04.2011

the day i got a haircut =p awesome!

one...byebye my asset =')

two...ready, set, go!

three...no mercy bebeh! *evil laugh

four...pretty long hair is gone

five...hello shorty =)

six...a keri hilson look =p (off to work with a new haircut)

a new look, new me, new life..hope for the better :)

short visit

2011-04-26T16:05:00.002+08:00

Friday, 22.04.2011

Mr.Fever give baby a short visit. hehe. everyone was having a fever that week (yaya, darling & isma). so Mr.Fever thought it would be good to give baby a visit. hurm. syukur alhamdulillah it was only for that night. pls don't visit baby so often Mr.Fever cz mama don't like it!

JINT

2011-04-21T15:45:00.000+08:00

i miss my JINT! :(

ter_angkat

2011-04-21T15:40:00.002+08:00

'abg ku syg' and 'dik nym'

a picture of us when hubby was my 'abg angkat' and i was his 'adk angkat'. LOL! my lil bro send it to me. thnx tip. haha. this pix was one of the pix that i remmber cz we were the first at that class and if i'm not mistaken, this pix was taken by my sistah, k.ya :) tqvm. hubby was so skinny aite? haha. we were darker back thn (hitam manis..haha). omg! it brings back all the memories. i love my hubby back thn and i still do. alwys will ♥

baby says...

2011-04-21T15:29:00.003+08:00

messy mama

baby:

look at my mama. this is how she looks like after she's taken a shower and washed her hair. she looks like a crazy person. lol. can u see her original hair? the curly hair. the rest is her rebonding hair. hehe. soon she'll have a haircut and i can't pull her hair like i used to anymore. damn it! oOppSs! hehe :D

playground
baby:
wanna join me? come, come. let's play. having mama with me at the playground is no use because she'll only take lotsa pix of me cz i'm cute. lol.

asset be gone

2011-04-21T15:26:00.001+08:00

wanna have a haircut!

yes, my long hair (my asset) will be cut short. why? read my previous (old) post. hurm. byebye long hair =')

cranky baby

2011-04-21T15:21:00.002+08:00

lately baby cry a lot. hurm. why? *wondering~

mama gets tired when baby can't stop crying cz he'll stop if mama dukung. adoyaii syg. why are like this? baby is growing up. he can now crawl tp still slow. so, he doesn't really like to stay in his walker that much anymore. he wants to crawl and grab so many thgs. now have to take extra care of baby cz takot lah pape kn. huhu. we'll never knw. hurm. mama hope baby will be a good boy ye syg. love you always my dear :)

faces

2011-04-21T15:14:00.003+08:00

crying

this is how baby looks like when he really cries (sedihkn muka baby..lol). why is he cryg here? it's bcs mama is ignoring baby. he's tired but don't wanna sleep. so mama will let baby cry for awhile (make him extra tired) then mama will put baby to sleep (easier). hehe.

berry
this is how baby looks like when he's making his pancake. haha. look at the nose (kembang beb). hehe. then he will stay still until mama & papa smell the perfume frm paris (uncle milk yg ckp bau berry cmtu.haha.sengal).

why mama make a post about this? it's bcs these are the faces that mama love. lol.

♥ Afif Aydin

friendly

2011-04-21T15:00:00.002+08:00

cik isma..baby..pakcik sopi

people always say "die x takut dgn org kn. bgs lah". yup, my baby is very friendly :) just like mama & papa. there's advantages and disadvantages about this. okay here's the example. when mama & papa want to eat, other people can take care of baby. the bad thg about it is that if baby is too friendly, it's no suprise if baby follow a stranger. hurm. okay, sometimes baby cried when seeing someone he doesn't really like (my bff dh kena, so does kwn my sistah, kak joanne..sorry ye). hehe. my hope is that baby will not be a spoil brat. xske btol dgn budak yg 24/7 nk dgn mama die jek. rimas. so, thank God my baby is quite okay :)

about isma and sopi, they are a couple. isma is now attach to my baby. sopi always said "isma nk dtg rumah cz nk jmp ank ko". hehe :) baby love to play with cik isma and she is also okay with baby cz she knows how to handle him (rasanye lah..hehe). isma have a lil bro (4-year-old). nwyas, this couple is sweet. hope they'll last forever. AMIN!

together

2011-04-21T14:55:00.003+08:00

♥ nymabu ♥

yup, we are working together as a part timers at Delicious (catering group). when there's an event, we will work. sometimes we work at the same event :)

we study at the same place (UiTM Lendu, Melaka) and now working together. hopefully we'll be together forever. insyaallah :)

cik jui

2011-04-21T14:43:00.004+08:00

hiasan rumah: bunga sabun

that's the name of my hubby's aunty. cik jui ni sgt kreatif. she made it herself. yup, she did. she can also decorate hantaran for weddings. so, anyone interested, pls let me know aite.

weekends

2011-04-21T14:33:00.004+08:00

family Sopi came to visit :)

they came to KL cz they wanted to go to Perak for a relative wedding. so they've decided to stay for a night at my house (rumahku clean okay..haha). Sopi's mom (mak) brought us so many food frm JB. she cooked. actually it was more for Sopi tp kita join sekali. haha. it was so yummy. tqvm for coming and sudi to stay over at my house. hehe. jgn serik ye :)

btw, got my petai (bsr2 beb..haha) and durian (sgt byk). again, tqvm.

hopefully after this my in-laws plak dtg :)

a post for today

2011-04-20T19:24:00.000+08:00

You may not wish to engage in a conflict now, Gemini, but you may find it hard to stop yourself. There is someone in your world who really rubs you the wrong way, or knows exactly which buttons to push. This person probably loves a fight. It is natural to want to fight back in such a situation. But you have to fight the urge to fight! If you don't, you'll wind up in a battle that no one can win. If you do, on the other hand, you'll prove to yourself that you have greater control over your emotions than you realized, and you'll maintain a wonderful positive vibration in your life.

This is wht my horoscope said for today. Hurm. Honestly, I admit it tht lately I feel a bit down and kinda angry at some ppl. So I give up hoping, again. Wht was I hoping for? Understanding? Help frm others? Huh! Dunno how to explain. I guess I hv to control myself. Be positive nym and think the best for your own good. Chaiyok!

Latest:
Since yesterday, I've started to babysit Darling & Yaya (k.lily's daughters). Wht do I hv to do? Well, I come to k.lily's house in the morning (maksu pick me up or someone send me..yes, of cz baby is with me :) dnt worry aite). Thn I monitor the kidz to do their homework and complete it. Thn by 12:30pm, they hv to go to school (someone pick them up). Then k.lily go to work and left me with baby :) Darling & Yaya come back frm school by 7:00pm. Maksu come home after tht. Then send them to their tuition class. Maksu send me home after tht. So basically, tht's all my job for this baby-sitting thgy. Hehe. Well, I do cook for the gurls and I take care of them when they don't go to school (cz demam or skt pape). I only babysit them on the weekdays (kdg2 jek bile no one cn jga the gurls). At least I've got some extra money to keep :) if I dnt babysit, I'll be working (part time waitress).

Tht's all for now aite. Chowzyy~

a post on fire

2011-04-14T08:28:00.001+08:00

Fire. Don't play with fire. It's not a joke when it comes to fire. Haha. Well, that's why y'alls said to me. Hehe. Sorry. It's kinda funny when I think about it. Okay y'alls must be blur right? Dunno wht I'm talking about. Hehe. Here's wht happen to me :)

I'm use to do so many thgs at a time. Multi-tasking, cz it's easy for me. So many thgs can be done at one time. Yesterday was a day tht makes me realize, I can't alwys do lotsa thgs at a time. Lol. Why? Okay, here's the thg. I wanna cook dinner for hubby. I put the oil in a pan thn I let it be (nk panas kn lah konon nye). Thn while waitg, I washed baby's bottle. Suddenly there was a big fire. I was like "OMG!". I was panicked so I throw the water tht was in baby's bottle into the pan. I didn't go near the pan cz the fire was hell big. Gosh! I can't think straight at the time. After I throw in the water, the fire got bigger and I was like "shit! What am I gonna do?!". Then pooofff! It's gone. Evrythg was okay. Fire gone but I was still in shock. Lol. Sopi was at home (watchg tv with baby). I wanted to scream but it didn't happen. Lol. It was scary but at the same time it was funny to me. Syukur alhamdulillah (selamat rumahku xterbakar..hehe). So I sat down and relax for a while then after half an hour I continue cooking.

So there u go. A great thg happn to me in the kitchen. Suddenly I remmbred wht my dad used to say "bila memasak jgn buat bnd lain.nti tbakar, ssh". Lol. So I told hubby bout it and share the experience in fb (status). Hehe. Sopi did laugh at me cz I was kinda shock and unable to cook straight away. Haha. Ohh nym, next time dnt do it again. Haha. Insyaallah there will be no next time :)

a post about changing

2011-04-11T12:56:00.002+08:00

Yes, changing. What's to chge? Me! Yup, u get tht right, I wanna chge into a better person. To be a better daughter, sister, daughter in-law, wife, mother & friend. Insyaallah with praying and 'berdoa' I'll chge. I may not chge 360 degrees cz thn I'll b a hypocrite. So, I'll chge bit by bit. Why so sudden? Bcs I think it's time I do somethg about myself. It's for baby's sake. Yeah I knw I'm still young & hell yeah I wanna hv fun (so does hubby) but I cnt forever be like wht I am cz baby is growing up. Have to show him the right way to live a life (bkn nk suh alim sgt but at least he knws wht's wrong/right).

Ppl been asking, why I wanna cut my hair short when y'alls knw I love my hair soo damn much (my asset). Well, here is the answer. I've nvr cut my hair since last year. Evn when I delivered baby & after 'pantang'. I kept it long cz I wanna. Now I wanna chge and strt fresh. So I wanna cut my dirty hair and let my new hair grow (still nk buat rebonding later..hehe). Then ppl been asking me, why I didn't wear scarf if I really wanna chge. Well, the answer is bcs I dnt wanna wear it without me being sincere wearing it (xmo bila dh pkai nk bkk2). I dnt want to be force to wear it either cz when I'm ready, I'll wear scarf willingly. Dnt need anyone to tell me this & tht (niat dh ade..doakn lah semoga hati ni terbuka ke arah itu..hehe).

I've stopped doing some things tht I used to do (xpyh cite lah ape erk..hehe). I dnt wear sexy clothes as much as I used to cz now I feel tht I dnt need to be sexy to look pretty. Then come to think again, I'll b prettier when I wear proper clothes (prasan jap..haha). I didn't do all ths for anyone or for someone. I did it for myself. Yup, for me myself and I.

Syukur alhamdulillah. Thank you God for giving me the greatest experiences in life :) Okay, honestly I wanna chge bcs of my baby and future kids. LoL. Just need time to be tht better person. Insyaallah :)

ohh my mickey

2011-04-10T00:06:00.003+08:00

i ♥ Mickey Mouse
addicted to it. this bb cover is the best! bought it at The Mines :) wanna know about it? read my previous (older) post. hehe :D

pictures

2011-04-09T23:12:00.005+08:00

♥ Amber Chia
met her in an event for Jaspal at Midvalley on Thursday, 7.4.2011 and met her again for another event for Eclipse at the same place on Friday, 8.4.2011 :) she's one of my idol. she's very tall and pretty in anything she wears. tqvm for being nice to ur fans Amber :)

baby got rashes :(
look at his cheeks. baby looks like he's wearing blusher on his cheeks. lol. the rashes spread all over his body. hope baby get well soon. mama take good care of u aite dear.

lunch hour -_-"
our 'felali' is not in a good condition. so here's a pix of wht happen on Friday afternoon. boohooo~

baby ♥ aunty meow
k.nya have to babysit baby for me cz me & hubby is working that day. tqvm for everything k.nya and k.metts.

it's dinner time =P
k.intan & abg lee treat me & hubby dinner at The Chicken Rice Shop. this pix were taken before our working hours. tqvm k.intan & abg lee for the night and tq to k.intan for the night before (treat me Pavlova from Delicious..yummy).
here we looked so happy aite? after work, is the best thing happen to me and hubby. a romantic night for us. LOL!

a post on what's hap_pening

2011-04-09T15:26:00.001+08:00

So many tests God given me at one time.

First test is that baby got rashes all over his body & face. It happened whn k.lily babysit him. She said that baby got the rashes after the evening bath. Thought it was bcs of the carpet (full of bulu kucing). At first there's not much rashes. Thn the nxt day it spread! I was worried but I didn't hv time to bring baby to the clinic. So, I asked k.nya to help me to bring baby to the clinic. She did (kena fees RM94..xpe lah, for baby's sake). K.nya said, the doctor told her that baby got nothg serious to worry about. Just an allergy (dunno wht). Huhu. Doctor also said myb somthg baby eat, play or sit. Some babies will b okay by 2-3days but some will suffer for 2-3weeks. Gosh! My lil prince charming hv a sensitive skin. So how? Huhu. Doa for my baby to be better aite y'alls. Tqvm. Appreciate it.

The second test was about our 'felali' (kereta kancil). Stranded yesterday (tangki air pecah<--somethg like tht lah..haha).

The third test was about hubby's motorcyle. Lost the keys while working yesterday in Midvalley. Huhu. What a day!

Read my previous post to knw about our 'felali' and hubby motorcycle. Hehe :)

So for all these, I thank God cz giving me such a great experiences in one week. Hurm. So here wht I feel now.

Lately I've been thinking to cut my hair short cz I wanted to look different and I want to chge myself. Becoming someone new. Strt fresh and chge into a better person for a better life :) I've never cut my hair for quite some time. So I guess there's no harm in cutting my hair now. I've promised hubby tht I will cut my hair short only if I get pregnant again but I feel like cutting it now evnthough everyone knows I love my hair soo much cz to me it's my asset :) LoL.

So, I'm gonna chge. Insyaallah. Doa for me ppl. Ohh, one more thing for ur info, I'll wear tudung when I'm ready. Not frm wht ppl say or ppl forcing me to. Dnt worry, niat dh ada :)

That's all for now folks. Penat nk type dh. Haha. Tcare. Chowzyy~

a post about my fantabulous Friday

2011-04-09T14:51:00.002+08:00

Here's a story about the greatest friday (yesterday, 8 April 2011) of my life...

It started in the afternoon. It was Friday, it means tht hubby got a long break for lunch. Hubby was supposed to send me and baby to Midvalley cz I'm working and k.nya is going to pick baby up there. Not yet out frm Puchong, we were stranded on the side of the road (after IOI Mall). Yup, stranded I say. On our way to Midvalley. First of all let me tell y'alls tht our 'felali' (red kancil car) is not in a good condition. The tempreture is always high but syukur alhamdulillah, at least we have a car :) nways back to my story. We stopped at a place where it says 'Lori Sewa' and there were some indian ppl 'lepaking'. I guess they are the drivers of the lorries. Nways, hubby got out of the car and take a look at the engine and all. Thn hubby asked me to take baby to sit under the tree cz it's sunny and hot if I stay in the car. Whn I got out of the car, I saw lotsa water came out of the engine area. One of the driver came to us and said "tangki air (or smthg like tht) pecah/bocor teruk".

Hubby called his friend, Sopi (he is now renting a room at our hse for few months) to help picked us up. While waitg for Sopi, the indian driver help hubby. He said tht our 'felali' can move but slowly. So hubby decided to bring it back home cz he have to go bck to work (naek motor je lah jwbnye). Huhu. Sopi arrived and hubby asked Sopi to help him. Sending me and baby to Midvalley. Sopi was fine with it cz he said he have to go to PJ for an appointmnt (working). Thank God! Tqvm Sopi.

Enough about our 'felali'. Now another great story that happen to us. After work I have to go bck home with hubby. Merempit y'alls. Haha. Usually I go bck with the boss (maksu) but yesterday I went back with hubby. After done with all the thgs, hubby & I wanted to go bck. As soon as we reached hubby's motorcycle, hubby said "ma, mana kunci motor eh?". Omg! Hubby forgotten whre he put his keys. Great huh?! Thank you hubby :) so, we didn't find the keys (did go to the security office but hampehhh~ huhu). Hubby's friend, Herry came to us and helped. Wanted to start the motorcycle without the keys but he failed. Hubby's motorcycle was locked so Herry unlocked it (kopak habes). Too bad so sad. Herry helped us to bring the motorcycle to the Delicious warehouse in Jln Sg. Besi (yup, tolak frm Midvalley..wht an experience for me..hehe). By then it was midnight (I was only thinking about baby<--he was with k.nya..jln2..hehe). Then hubby's other friend, Epul, gave us to borrow his motorcyle. So we left hubby's motorcycle at the warehse and off we went. Back home cz it was getting late. Soo late! Btw, tqvm Herry & Epul.

It's been ages since I ride with hubby on a motorcycle for a long distance. Hehe. Romantic :) haha. Brings back all the memories. Arrived home safely (syukur alhamdulillah), we went straight to bed. Too tired an exhausted!

So, tht's the story of the most amazing friday of my life. Haha.

Al-Fatihah

2011-04-05T10:30:00.003+08:00

[gambar diambil dari blog Akim]

Al-Fatihah
Qistina bte Mohammad
(4 April 2011)
sepupu hubby (ank cik ayeng & cik lin..family on ayah's side) telah kembali ke rahmatullah pada usia 9 tahun akibat tumor otak ='(

explore

2011-04-05T10:17:00.003+08:00

3 April 2011
the day we explore lotsa place.

this picture was taken by hubby's friend, Sani. tqvm :) it was taken in hubby's old workplace at The Mines. it was great to be back there. there's soo many things that are on sale! gosh! i was like "damn it! no money, just window shopping. damn!" hahahaha. nways, i bought a bb cover for RM25. it got Mickey Mouse on it! hahaha. as y'alls know, i'm addicted to Mickey Mouse things, so i bought it without thinking! hehehe. wasting money? yeah, i guess so but i'm satisfied. LoL.

okay enough about that. the second place we went that day was to Petaling Street. we've never been to Petaling Street so hubby said "let's go and have a look at wht kinda place it is". as we arrived i asked hubby to bring the stroller along. i regret it! Petaling Street was sooo packed with lotsa humans and shops! gosh! that's the first time we went there. hubby and baby was sweating like hell (kesian). haha. baby was kinda grumpy and he didn't want to sit in the stroller.

okay, first of all, the purpose we go here and there was that hubby is searching for 'parang' for him to bring along on his adventure with the UTM staff (end of April, panjat gunung kt Kelantan). we didn't find any 'parang' so off we go to Jalan Masjid India. hubby asked me if i remmber the road. as usual, i don't. i just remmber that in Masjid India there's only clothes here & there but hubby doesn't believe what i've said. so there we were with boring faces and a tired body, we walked along Jalan Masjid India. didn't buy anything (sbnrnye nk jek beli baju2 tu..murah and cantik giler..ohh, i miss my sistah! huhu). so basically the whole day was a tiring and an exhausting day. didn't buy anything AT ALL! hahaha =p wht a day!

we did explore and now we know what those places are like and where it is. LoL =p

bath time with papa

2011-04-05T10:13:00.001+08:00

03.04.2011
the first time papa give baby a bath :)
♥ my heroes!

mommy time

2011-04-05T09:58:00.004+08:00

mama loves to spend time with baby. most precious time.
being a mama, hurm, wht can i say bout it huh?! well, it's one of the best thing that anyone could ever ask for. the time i spend with baby at home is soo great. okay, honestly, yeah it's very tiring but it was fun cz i gotta see my baby's development. how he move himself forward, trying to reach for lotsa things and the latest, trying to crawl :)
now i'm waiting for baby to say his first word =p dunno wht it's gonna be but i always teach him to say 'mama' and 'papa'. people said that tv is not so good for kids but hey, nowadays there's no such thing right?! hehe. so i always open cartoons that teach my lil prince some education such as spell words, know shapes, music, etc. here are some programs that i let baby to watch:

TV9
Adik & Al-Quran (everyday at 7:30pm)
NTV7
hi-5 (everyday at 7:30am)
Nickelodeon
fairly odd parents, spongebob squarepants, team umizoomi, bubble guppies, word world
Play House Disney Channel
mickey mouse clubhouse, handy manny, dibo the gift dragon
Disney Channel
upin & ipin
Cartoon Network
ben 10, garfield, tom & jerry, pink panther

there's more but i couldn't remmber all. hehe. most of the time i let baby to watch the educational cartoons. the others are just for fun. he loves it :)
so basically, i'll be watching all the cartoons with baby =p hehehe. just loving it. LOL.

♥ Afif Aydin

a carseat for baby

2011-04-05T09:30:00.002+08:00

thanx to aunty meow (k.nya) for the carseat :)
appreciate it. baby loves it. now mama have to sit at the back cz baby will sit next to papa cz only papa can drive. pitty mama =p hehehe.

my asset

2011-04-03T09:17:00.002+08:00

my asset is my hair
yup, my hair. why? because without my hair people will say i look like bapok. sometimes when i'm too lazy to do anythg with my hair, people will say, me selekeh and looks like a guy (sometimes even hubby said so..boohoo).
i just love to do so many things to my hair. colour it, cut it (not soo short), curl it, straighten it, etc. hehehehe :)
so, yes, my asset is my hair and i'm lovin' it ♥

once upon a time

2011-04-03T09:13:00.002+08:00

once upon a time i was a student at UiTM Lendu, Melaka in Diploma Office Management & Technology. the gurl next to me is my junior/roommate (used to be), Puteri Tyana. we've been bestfriends ever since :)

in this pix my hair is actually not that short. it's just a part of my layered hair. haha. tipah tertipu sudah~

step by step to crawl

2011-04-03T09:10:00.002+08:00

step by step to crawl
baby is trying to crawl. now baby hanya pandai ngesot (dgn sgt laju ye). mama saje nk test baby. so this is the result on how baby nk amek puting die tuh. hehe. baby can now lift his body up but don't know how to move forward. hehe. chaiyok baby!!!

upin & ipin

2011-04-03T09:05:00.002+08:00

ada apa dengan Upin & Ipin ???
why i ask this question? it is because i am wondering why kidz, even babies could stay still and focus on the tv when upin & ipin is on air?
there this one time, baby was asleep then upin & ipin was on air, baby terus bangun, pusing to watch upin & ipin. sometimes, just by hearing the song, he'll focus on the tv.
bg moms it's easy cz only thn we can do thgs (ye lah, ank diam jek). but still, i keep on wondering why?! can anyone answer me???
what's so special about Upin & Ipin ???

yucckkss!

2011-04-03T08:45:00.002+08:00

yucks! me no likey rice -_-"
this is how baby will look like when mama feed him rice (bubur yg dh diblend). baby will spit it out again n again. myb mama buat bubur xsedap. huhu. sorry sayang ;p

Plaza Low Yat

2011-04-03T08:37:00.002+08:00

with Akim (hubby's cousin on ayah's side) in front of Big Apple Donuts
don't be jealous gurls. haha. especially my sistah, K.ya ;p
met him after work. maksu was the one who saw Akim then i went to him and asking him if i can take a picture with him. he asked me to wait cz he was buying some donuts. then after taking this picture, i told Akim who i am (hubby's wifey) and he asked for hubby's mobile number. hahaha. saje me nk sakat hubby. so i post it straight to Blackberry Messenger (BBM) and FB. hehe. bukan nk kecoh but it was just for fun. LOL.

NYM BUNCIT!
yes, as u can see in this pix i've got that 'babat'. haha. this was taken in a lift in Marc Resident (tmc). followed maksu to another event after work. basically i'm just saying that ppl been saying me 'mama hot'..duhh! i'm so not! see for urself people. open ur eyes. LOL.

hello

2011-04-03T08:33:00.002+08:00

mami ain, dadi mirul and aunty alya came to visit baby
at first baby was so scared with mami ain (nanges giler2 mcm npk hantu jek time tgk muka ain..haahaha). when papa put baby in baby's walker, baru lah baby okay. hehe. tu lah, nxt time y'alls have to come to visit baby more often ;p
mami ain came cz she's no longer staying in Kedah (practical). yeay! thnk you for coming y'alls. appreciate it :)

byebye angah ='(

2011-04-03T08:18:00.004+08:00

R.I.P Nurul Khairiyah (1989-2011)
died on 31 March 2011, Thursday in a motorcycle accident in Section 2, Shah Alam (roundabout). she was in a koma for a week and had a brain operation.
Al-Fatihah

also known as Angah. die ni budak level time aku kat kolej dlu. in this pix, die yg duk paling kiri tu. ni pix arwah angah with her roommates masa kat kolej in UiTM Lendu, Melaka (kolej Tun Puteri). soo many memories with her ='(

arwah angah was a great friend to me. she used to be 'ketua level' but i helped her with things. this photos are all taken time we all have a dinner level which ktorg slalu buat every semester. got the news from the gurl in the middle, Nurshaidah. also known as Abc (aku budak comot). hehe. she told me that angah is gone cz she was involve in an accident. i was so shocked! i cried cz time we all dulu kat kolej, we were very close with each other (ye lah, kna induct..smp skrg ingt..hehe). i didn't get to see her in the hospital time die koma cz nobody told me about her. too bad soo sad ='(

~semoga rohnya dicucuri rahmat~

after work

2011-04-03T08:14:00.003+08:00

mama ♥ you soo much baby!
everytime i've finish working, i'll be meeting baby. thn it's wrestling time. haha. played with baby until he is quite tired and annoyed by me (lepas dh basuh muka n kaki). hehe. i don't know why but i miss baby soo much when i'm working (thinking bout baby all the time). then whene i see him back at home, i'll be like "ohh, my baby, mama miss u soo much!" <--hahaha..like i've not seen him for years..hehehe..silly me :p